I have been battling health anxiety for 18 years. It became much worse 2 years ago and has lead to suicidal thoughts and depression. After being rear ended by another car, I suffered a back and neck injury. My beloved job was losses because the company does not allow disabilities. In the last two years I have lost all of my friends because they just " don't do
Drama" or they could understand my anxiety. Our Bible study group was a
Source of support, but we just lost them too. A new couple joined and comments were made against people with mental illness. We talked with two of the couples who were with us in the original group, but their only solution was for me to ignore it or for me to leave. This is the third group I've had to leave (one was because the pastor made us break up). I feel like I belong no where in the church and I have no support. My dad doesn't even want to talk with me. I feel like a burden to my kids and husband. With the health anxiety and depression, I feel like I'm standing at an open window with a fire creeping closer and closer.
You're not alone Elizabeth! Have you ever seen a psychiatrist or therapist? Bible groups are great but hearing your story it sounds like they just don't get it! A therapist has seen and worked with people like me and you. They will help you understand what is going on. I felt like I was on a slippery slope to hell also until met with a therapist and threw everything onto them. Also those people don't sound like christians to me. If anything a Christian should know spiritual warfare and teach you to take authority of the "demons" stronghold on the mind. Talk to someone who gets what you're going through and who truly wants to help. Those who don't are irrelevant!
Thank you so much! I do have a therapist who is a Christian and she's excellent, but I don't see her until next week. It's been 2 weeks since I've seen her and this loss of our group happened last Friday.
Our church doesn't speak much about demons, but I know they are there. I just don't know how to stop their influences on my life.
I want to enjoy my family again. To live again without this constant fear. The minute I start to feel carefree, I have the jolt that things are too good; there must be cancer looming somewhere in my body. I freeze. I'm terrified of doctors, even though I have a good one.
Elizabeth
For a start I would look for a nicer church group, possibly in a different church. They sound like a real load of uncaring induviduals. The Pastor sounds like He feels there was plenty bad vibes in the group He split up.
We all have car accidents when young especially in out teens, high twenties and yes damage can cause the wind to be knocked out of our sails.
Like you I had a bad car accident when I skidded into a stone wall. It took then over an hour to cut me out and they needed to use winches to lift the dashboard of my legs. They found I had pushed the Sturnum into my heart, smashed a wrist and ankle and had extensive glass pieces forced into my face form the side window. I nearly lost the Ankle and foot and my leg got caught up between clutch peddle and gear housing. I was off work for six months. Yes I suffered PTSD and I was not the same person after all my treatment.
Eventually I was in with my Doctor in hospital and was told how bad the accident had been and they explained I needed to move on. I took their advice and began to travel again, eventually I found my future life and all seemed to work out eventually
We all have accidents and have to learn we need to get over the experience and move on, life is to short to keep mulling over unpleasent memories. Learn from it and be more careful
BOB