I'm a female. 17, 18 in 3 weeks. I've been suffering from depression for 4 months. It came out of the blue and I can't think of a reason why. Ive got everything I could want and I was so happy before. Its litterally like its came out of the blue. I get bad thoughts about myself, don't want to see my friends and thy make me angry for no reason. I get worries about my boyfriend and our relationship even though he is perfect and I was so happy before. I get or irritates and angry easily and cry all the time. I've also had some thoughts about self harming however I haven't yet. I saw my gp a few times but don't feel they've done anything to help me. Ive read alot of self help booklets and tried the techniques but nothing seems to work. Please help me I can't go on like this anymore
hello nicole,
since seeing your gp did not help I suggest you go and see a psychiatrist.
even if you think that everything is in the best order it might not really be that way. there is always a reason someone creates a depression.
try to find out what's bothering you. you can do this by listening to your feelings. f.e. what do you feel when you see your boyfriend? do you feel like you want to be with him all the time or do you feel like you need some time for your own... what do you feel when you wake up in the morning? do you like to go to school or are you having lots of stress lately? what are your goals in your life? ...
when you think of something, try to sort out what you feel when you think of something. this gives you a direction. learn to know what's good for you and also learn what you don't like.
it is important that you see your current mood as an indicator that something is bothering you. since there are organical reasons for depression you should check out that this is not the case. and then see a therapist, regularly.
most of the time it's not just one thing that has happened as there are many little things that create enough power to depress us.
take a look at the "life event scale"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holmes_and_Rahe_stress_scale
maybe this helps!
I would suggest you visit your GP again and ask for help as your are past the 2weeks of watchful waiting. Self help books are useful but what works best sometimes is a more holistic support i.e. Support from your GP as per referral to CBT treatment, medication, help and support from family and friends or group therapy and or self help books.
You are not alone in how you are feeling and there is help for you. Depression is common but the good news is that people recover from it and you will.
Hi Nicole, hope since you last posted you are feeling a bit better?
I have been exactly where you are now and know how terrifying and lonely it is. I am now 30 but have been getting bouts of depression since I was 15. I felt different from all of my friends and felt detached from reality. Like you there wasn't any reason for it, I had a great family and good friends but one day it just hit me and I couldn't think why. I went on like this for about a year which was torture and it came to the point where I just couldn't deal with it.
My mum took me to the gp and he eventually prescribed me some anti depressants. I didn't feel better for about 4 weeks but kept going with it. Gradually I felt a little better and was able to do small things like walk around the block, spend a few hours with my friends, by the end of the month I was back to my normal self.
Sometimes it is just a chemical imbalance in the brain, where there is not enough serotonin as there should be. I can't be sure and I'm not a doctor but I personally feel like medication along with some talking therapy would really help you.
I have been on medication since then and it has been my life saver...I still get episodes of depression but theyonly last for bout 3 weeks when I'm on medication.
Hope this helps
Lou