I am 26 years old. I live on my own I work full time and am going back to Uni in September after a year off with Anxiety/Depression.
Recently I have being having immense feelings of anxiety and paranoia to the point I feel sick. I feel incompetent at work and suspicious of my colleagues. I get the picture they don't think I'm up to my job but won't tell me ddirectly but they speak amongst themselves. I have heard one of the social workers on my team mutter under his breath that I am useless. Today he commented on a mistake I made and I'm fearful of making any mistakes. I have little conversation with anyone at work and told that I don't interact well with people. I always come home.crying because I feel rubbish and worthless.
I have friends but I find it hard to.trust so I don't speak to them about my inner thoughts.
I haven't had a boyfriend for four years and struggle to meet people. The recent people I have been on.dates with have told me I'm not intelligent but a very nice person. I struggle to.hold a conversation and scared I will be forever alone. I have low self esteem and no confidence. Along with my anxiety it is crippling me and at times I wish I was not here.
I'm a pretty girl. I'm into fashion clubbing ect but I feel there is nothing about me.
I don't know what to do.
u don't rally want to say you wish you wasn't here you only get 1 chance and this is it. Anxiety is crap I know its hard to live with it can be cured its mind over matter and from sounds of it your pretty depressed but that's alright every 1 feels this way in life all you have to do is try take it on chin talk to your dr of family members will help loads and forget what people say if your trying your best there is nothing more you can do some people might not experience this like the person who muttered under his breath is a example of a arse clown he doesent know what your going through but if he had it it would be different he would be the same all I can say is you will get through it its not the end of the world like I said talk to family members and your dr your dr will help alot msg me any time good luck u will get through it
Join my group on fb if u havent got fb I will be making 1 on here soon its called anxiety (health anxiety) will need to add you so will need to know wht pic u have might be 600 of u lol
Oh gosh Princess . .. feels like you are feeling pretty down about yourself.
Have you seen a therapist about this or on any meds? I think that would be the best thing to do if you haven't.
Agirl xxx
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I've been going through the same. Like I feel my confidence is at a all time low, and my anxiety and depression at a all time high. I am kind of just feeling almost hollow today and haven't been able to find any motivation to do anything I was supposed to. I recently made an order for some Tianeptine (a SSRE) and am hoping that this helps me where all the past medications failed.
It really doesn't matter who or what rude people or dates say at this point. You have seen that whatever turmoil is inside of you is spilling out and affecting your personal and professional life. You do not have to live like this. I ache for you. You need to see a therapist, but most importantly, at lest for the short term, you need to be on some sort of medication to be able to function better and to allow therapy to work. I have been where you are and suspect it (of course I don't really know you) it's more to do with a chemical imbalance, not self esteem. You seem smart and able to prioritize. Sometimes you can get extreme social anxiety when you're dealing with this. I would hold off the dating so as not to invite more negativity, until you have a better handle on things. Best of luck.
Princess, everything you've described above are symptoms of anxiety and depression. You are not alone here as many people with a certain level of anxiety disorders also feel that way.
The immense feelings of anxiety and paranoia to the point of being sick, as well as the feeling of incompetence at work and the suspicion of colleagues are normal.
Having said that, they can also be overcome. Likewise, yo can overcome your fears, anxiety and build your self-confidence back up again and lead a fulfilling life.
What is important here is to seek help that is right for you. Every help out there is not for everybody. The key principle is not to give up seaching - they is surely a help that is right for you, and you'll definitely find if you keep searching.
By analysing your note above, I think what you might need is psychotherapy - with special attentions to your repressed negative emotions which are sending out various anxiety outlets to your mind, body and emotions.
I could imagine what you are going through now, as I've been there myself. But the good news to you is that I am now totally free from anxiety and depression. So if I can do it, you can too! Never give up...
Thank You. I have stopped taking my medication but have re ordered some more. Citalopram. I will have a read. Thanks again x
Its the worst isn't it. I've gone to self esteem and confidence courses but I think I'd feel a benefit if the group sessions were long term. How are you feeling today? I tried Citalopram which I found great and I came off them now feel sh*t again.
Thank you for your reply I agree in that I need to see someone. I should be having CBT soon I hope this helps as one on one counselling wasn't that great and I find it hard to express my feelings especially on the spot. I am going to hold of on the dating otherwise it will send me into a deeper hole.
OK best of luck! I really recommend cognitive behavioural therapy. It has been a life-saver for me! xxxxx
Sorry about the delay.
I was feeling like complete trash. Couldn't sleep, had no appetite. My tianeptine came in a few days ago, and so far I've been taking 2 capsules a day and seen a slight improvement in my mood and depression. I've got to agree the benefits from group seessions are awesome, but it requires always going, I remember when I went to sessions and if I missed one I'd feel out of wack more so than if I hadn't even been going period (feeling guilty for missing a session, I assume).