I don't know what to do anymore, i'm on meds but they arn't really doing anything from the moment I wake up I feel awful, I can't face anything, the worst part is I can't even look after my son, it's not that I don't want to be with him (I want to give him the best life I can) I just feel really anxious/worried around him - I don't know why - but it makes me feel like a bad father and a failure. I so badly want to be better for him so he can have his dad back. My wife is helping me the best she can but I can see that it's putting a strain on things. If I'm honest I am getting the "dark" thoughts but would never act on them - my son deserves a father. I just want the pain to go away.
Hi,
Im sorry to hear that your feeling so down.
Is there anything thay triggers it.
It sounds very much like depression. Are you on meds for that. Maybe speak to your gp about trying something elsr that might suit you better.
Hi saxman. I'm so sorry to hear this.
I'm wondering, how long have you been on the meds? Have you been feeling worse since taking them? Are they ssris?
hi,
i don't think there is anything in particular that triggers it, i'm on a number of meds on for depressions and a beta blocker as well, also been refered to a nut nut doctor. at the rate i'm going i'm going to loose my job and my family
one of them is a ssris med the other beta blocker, my doctor changed me to them after my citalorpem stoped working (had been on them for 10 years), changed them about 2 and a half months ago. i just kepted trying to go on with work etc.. then on sunday - whamm!! down i go and down i stayed. i used to be able to just shug it off and carry on. but this time i can't. all i want to do is sleep as it can't bother me when i'm sleeping
I am so sorry. I am not a doctor but I'm wondering about your meds. It could be a mixture of withdrawals from citalopram and your new ssri not being right. Propranolol can be a bad one for depression, too.
i am struggling badly because of meds. Definitely don't stop them as abrupt discontinuation is bad but I would possibly looking at the meds, especially as you've got worse since taking them.
I have the same feeling that i want to sleep so i dont have to feel any anxiety and panic.
There was a time i didnt want to get out of bed or go anywhere or see anyone,
I kept on at the docs until they gave me the help i needed.
I had cbt, councelling, venlafaxine, setraline, beta blockers.
I really hope you get the help you need.
I dont mean to be funny, but write your story, write everything.
In fact type it down with headings and subheadings etc.
It will help, after you wrote this post I know you felt better. Write your Story ! Start from the beginning.
Also it sounds to me like thoughts of your son are a trigger, for me it was thoughts of my wife.
You want to do lot for your son as many loving fathers but you are feeling the guilt.The guilt makes the anxiety and depression much much worse.
I am happy to exchange personal emails if you want someone to talk to, I know its hard, Iv been there !
Saxmann,
I'm new to the forum but I agree with Mo786. Write your Story, which will certainly help you by sharing your experience with others. Forum users with also be in a better position to comment and help.
I should do the same. Currently depressed due to GAD and looking forward to have comments from people in similar situations.
Best of luck!
Boris
Welcome to my life only difference between you an me is I'm single an your not an out off curiosity what meds are you on exactly.
Now you may not wanna hear this but to stop the majority of the anxiety you need to find the trigger then you need to acceptt what you got an that pills won't work neither do shrinks an once you've accepted that life or at least my life became easier
hi saxman sorry you feel terrible at moment what symptons do you have,im on citalpran started on 20 mg was on them for long time then my mum passed away last september, then my childrens other nan died this march then our dog in april, then my son had a little break down was calling ambulances all the time for hes panic attacks,hes now away getting treatment but my anxietys as high as ever never seems to go away,ive started to sleep a bit better now.hope you feel better soon.
hi there,,ive read your story and also the comments ,, i agree with the comments to your story,,but i think not only are you haven withdrawl from being on your meds for ten yours and starting new form of meds its also work related,, id say go back to your gp explain exactly how you are feeling on these new meds ,,then sit down and ask yoursels the job you are in does it cause you stress or is the work load to much,, good luck,, take care of you,, xx
thank you everyone for your replys - i shall take it on board
Hi saxmann. Oh boy, do I feel for you. If you aren't getting any luck with the meds may I suggest that you look for an EFT or FasterEFT Practitioner, preferably close to you. Apparently it is pretty amazing. All the best.