Almost every day I cry. This is really taking over my life. I can't even speak to no one because I'm afraid if they will judge me or tell someone else. Like for example, my mom. Every time I try to be honest with her or come to her about something,she rubs something in my face. I thought mothers are supposed to be supportive? The other day I was having some problems in my private parts. So of course i did some research and all I see was , you might have a std. I started flipping tf out. I was crying so hard and my mom wouldn't take me to the hospital until I beg her. Then when I got there the nurse act like it wasn't a big deal and said I had a bacterial vaginosis. But honestly when I get back home I think it got worse. So right now Idek what to do cause I'm so scared. I never have anyone to talk to about my problems. Everytime I have a problem I cry and run away. Sometimes it just wanna make you end your life....
That is so horrible that your mum is not supportive and I do feel so sorry for you for that. We all rely on our mum for support and advice and when that isn't there it adds to the feelings of loneliness.
I've got anxiety and I've also had bacterial vaginitis which wasn't pretty so, if you'd like, private message me and you can honestly ask me anything and I will not judge you at all.
Anxiety has a nasty way of intensifying physical symptons, scarily so!
Aww sorry to hear your having a rough time of it at the moment.
Most problems down there can be solved and please dont google symptoms you make yourself worse by doing that.
your right your mum should be there for you, do you not have a close friend you can speak to?
No , I actually never had good friends. Every friend I had either stole from me , tried to talk to my boyfriend ( ex) , or lied to me.
aww that is not good, so sorry to hear.
i think you may have depression and/or anxiety also.
please message me if you think talking will help just so you know you are not alone.
Ok I will inbox you because I have some questions
Hey, you will be alright. Look, right now you have taken a big step. You are not crying and running away, you are seeking out help where you can find it. Just remember this all will pass at some point if you get the help you need. I am no doctor, and alot of us are not but we can give support. Truest your doctors they know what they are doing, and I would not recommend self diagnosing yourself too much online you can probably search any symptom and it will come up with some life threatening disease. That is just how the internet works for some reason. You will be alright. We are here for you. It is normal to cry some, honestly I don't do it enough. It is ok.
I have the same "problem" with speaking with people. I am always worried that i will say something wrong or they will for some odd reason go against me and I will have no support and be all alone in the matter. The thing is people are not that mean, the human race is surprisingly compassionate. Look here I a random person from god knows where is on this random website wanting to help other random people who we will never see or truly know who they are. I know even though I say that that won't really help you with talking with people, because it doesn't help me even though I know that. But still it is am amazing fact to think about.
Thank you , I always think about going to get some help but it just makes me feel uncomfortable.
I hoping your mom doesnt realize her behavior towards you. Maybe shes ll stressed out herself. When shes in calm mood she if you can talk with her about how you feel, but do it kindly and gently. The answer to your questions is yes mothers are suppose to be supportive but they arent always that way. Life can be overwhelming and stressful at any age, as a kid or an adult. But again hoping she doesnt realize it and thats not her personality. If she tends to be callous and cold see if she will get you a therapist. You hang in there and be strong. This is all temporary and changes up over time. You do sound like you feel depressed a bit if this continous longer then two weeks you should tell your ur doctor whats going on. You try and remember you are a wonderful person and very worthy of love and you will be able to surround yourself with geniune loving people when you get older and begin your life. Your life is very important in this world, you just dont know it yet. Sending you a ton of air hugs and hang in there
Thank you! I really appreciate what you said. But I am running away. I come to visit my mom in the summer so technically I don't really live with my mom. I got so mad at mom when she wouldn't take me to the hospital so out of anger I screamed I can't wait to leave. I can't even last a whole month with my mom and it's so sad.
How old are you? Because well it is sadly kinda normal to get extremely annoyed with your parents at certain stages of your life. Because you start to think, how could they understand and they do stuff that doesn't make sense to you and you don't feel like they are listening. One thing could be that she has already gone through something like this and is seeing it as very trivial but to you it is a completly new thing that you don't understand. And on top it sounds like you have anxiety and possibly other stuff so your mind keeps on having what ifs? What if. And well I completly understand that, I go through what ifs everyday and it can put a real toll on you. And it is not as simple as just stoping. Or just don't worry as much. It is in there, in your head telling you stuff. I now call it the little demon inside of you. It whispers and says what ever it can to make you fear. But it is really just your mind trying to figure out why you are so stressed and anxious. So you are not alone. Now I don't know your family but I will assume your mother loves you, it is hard wired in humans brain to love and do almost anything for their children so don't forget that. Even though you may have fights and she may really annoy you sometimes she still loves you. It is just a misunderstanding.
My mom probably has been stressed but she still doesn't have to take it out on me. Me and my mom wasn't never really close to where I can tell her everything. I don't why but I can't tell her how I ACTUALLY feel about. When I was younger she basically gave me up to some stranger so she can finish college. ok cool. But while she in college "trying to get her life together" she decides to have 2 more kids. Like what ? That doesn't make any sense and she knew I wanted to live with her. My entire life I wanted to get to know my mom but she decides to move far away to where I can't even see her no more. My dad side of the family tried to tell me about my mom but of course I wasn't listening because I wanted her so much like any child should. By 5th grade I finally get to live with my mother I dreamt of and by 9th grade I was ready to leave. Now I wish that stranger could been my mother sometimes because she did more than my mom ever did.
I'm 16 and I know she loves me. I know she do. But I don't understand the things she do. Like when she went to college and gave me up to some stranger just to have some more kids. I love my brother and sister very much but I felt abandon. I had to beg to come live with her. She should be begging for me to come back right ? Maybe me and her don't have the same mind sets
I will say that yes I would not consider what she did as the best thing she could have done. But I don't know, at the time it could have made the most sense. From what I can tell it is difficult to be a parent and balance your life out. I feel for you I honestly do. There is just always a reason you may not be able to see it but there was a reason. It is not like one day she just felt like poofing away, she did it for a reason. Have you ever asked her why? If not, then you may want to it could really help you two understand each other. Just don't be scared. We are here for you. She is as well even though it may not seem that way all the time.
Stop looking for the ideal, good Mom she doesn't exsist . Yes it's very sad for you as she wasn't a Mom and may never be.
Has your Dad not been around for you and his family and perhaps you have probably pushed them away in your search for your Mom. Be kind and loving to those that do want you in their lives.
My son of 19 sees how some of his friends parents are use to think they were young and progressive and is now very sad for his friends when their parents are not kind to them or respectfull to their children. Not all adults make good parents for many reasons including how they were brought up. Just make sure you are a good Mom when the time comes, and take your parents for what they are, not what you think they should be.
Councilling may help you come to terms with your lack of love and care from Mom in your life and help you move on and be happy.
No one should have had the childhood you, had but unfortunatly it happens. Try to get something positive out of it so you can have a happy life and not repeat it with your own children. Children are a gift that should be surrounded in love and nurtured to their full potential and happiness.
Hello Ayanna
If you have been given a diagnosis and You have been given an explanation of how to treat it. Trust what you have been told, you have been given a way forward trust that.
If it gets worse, then be seen again
Good Luck, keep a hold
BOB
Thank you. I need that. I'm just in so much pain right now.
Good Luck Ayanna
You know where we are
BOB
Who do you live with?