So last week I moved cities. I started a new job.
The bottom line is I hate living alone. I feel like im in a room with someone I hate.
This weekend Ive visited the old city I used to live in. My boyfriend lives there. Its been great seeing him.
But tomorrow morning I have to head back to the city I live in. Its only an hour and a half away. But it feels way further. Im nervous.
What if I feel lonely when i finish work? All of my feelings are hypothetical. They arent real. They haven't happened yet. I don't know for certain that i will feel like that, i'm just guessing.
My constant thinking is ruining my life. I don't know what to do anymore.
If I can't make things work here I will have to move back home. (I live abroad)
Im 23 years old. I should be traveling and loving life. Instead i feel down and despise any down or alone time.
I hope that someone else at least feels like this sometimes. If so, can you give me an insight on how to stop it?
Thank you,
Hannah
I think anyone with un managed anxiety should not pick themselves up and move to another city. A few do this. You need to get the anxiety under control. Then do all this. You wrote one line that explains so much "i feel like im in a room with someone i hate" wow very powerful.
Lisa was absolutely right, Hannah.
You need to see a doctor about getting some help with the anxiety, and if you feel you are living with someone you hate, you definitely want to see a good therapist!!!! It was very brave of you to admit that, now take that courage and get help, darling girl.
Hello Hannah
Where you are living now is it possible to rent a room out to someone else who you know or get on with ?. This could possibly help with your lonelyness. I gather you are living near London, there are good transport links, could you travel each day and then consider a new move if you manage to get another job where you used to live, then move back.
I do not know where you are from, I understand your relationship was limping along when you moved last week, so that in its own rite will be effecting any decisions you may take.
It does sound you may go back home abroad, is that a possible action to take or do you feel your future is in the UK.
You seem to have a great deal on your mind some CBT could help although I feel this may not be possible.
All I can say is if you need a chat we are always here
BOB