Ive always suffered from lack of confidence, and low self esteem. Ive been feeling really low for around a year now. Id told myself that this was because id been in and out of hospital with a range of issues/conditions. But the last month or so I cant even see the point in getting out of bed. When I do get up I tend to become Wound up by others extremly easily, and find myself crying for no apparent reason most days. I also find myself thinking about ways in which I could end my life regularly, which scares me.
Ive just been diagnosed with epilepsy, which has also had a affect on my life, as ive had to temporarily leave work, and hand my driving licence back and I feel as if everyone's crowding me jus waiting for me to have a seizure. It may sound daft, but Work and driving was my independence and I now dont see the point in doing things.
I seriously dont know what to do, I feel if I spoke to my doctor I wouldnt know what to say, or they would think i was being silly.
Hi. You're definitely not silly. You've had to go through a lot of changes recently and that would throw anyone out of sync. If you want to go back to your doctors then go for it. They are there to help you so go along and tell them what you've told us and see if they can offer some help. If they haven't got any suggestions then at least you tried but hopefully they will have some ideas.
iI agree with keepgoing. You are not being silly and it is not surprising that you feel like you do. Keepgoing is also right, you should talk to your doctor, perhaps even to see a counsellor or psychiatrist to get some help or some medication which may help with the low esteem and depression.. If you can get the right medication for you to stop any seizures, after a period of time, not sure how long it is that you have to go without seizures, you can apply to have your licence back, or so I am led to believe. If that is the case, all is not lost, especially as you're only off work temporarily. You should be able to apply for a free bus pass as you are unable to drive due to the epilepsy, which may be of some help.
There may even be an epileptic self help group in your area, if there is, someone may be able to give you some advice and support. There must be an epilepsy sufferers website, at least I should think there is and you should be able to find out more about what you can do and what kind of help/assistance there may be for you.
Lack of confidence and low self esteem are not nice and really can stop you from getting help, but there may be courses available to help with these, if you check at your library or community centre.
Even with all your problems, don't give up, it's so easy to do, but you deserve to have a good life and you can still be independent without your car. People do just wait for people to fail, they can be so horrible, but if you can ignore them, and get some help from your doctor, you could be on to a winning streak.
Good luck and chin up.
Marie
You are more than entitled to feel that way considering your situation. doing things that make you feel positive will help, even just havinga day of staying bed can make the world of a difference, start a new tv series, take up a hobby, do painting, get up everyday and tell yourself you are badass. Think of having epilepsy as a pro, you are an individual and this is just something which happened to you and will help define you in life, you will learn to cope and it probably will take ages but thats ok, what great things don't take ages to happen?? If you really feel the need to go back to the doctors then do it, whatever makes you feel better is the way to go. Death will only hurt those around you and so thats probably not the best way to deal with it..Instead of thinking of ways to die, think of new ways to live! Give yourself something positive and fun to focus on, but if you need a day to be on your own and down, then do it, its good to get things out of your system.
Ella x
Hello.
Please try to never give up,, my mother suffered from epilepsy for many, many years, you will find that people a lot more tolerant and understanding nowadays,, epilepsy is nothing to be ashamed of, if you are fit free for five years, you are able to get your driving licence back with no problem... I wish you all the luck in the world, you are in my thoughts and prayers.. take care, very best wishes to you,, Deidre xx