I've made a post about my situation on here and on many other forums, and the responses I've gotten have all mentioned how I need to go to a therapist or counselor. The problem is, I can't go to any of those things even though I need to. Last year I went to my counselor in school to talk about my intrusive thoughts and my counselor told my mom and my mom was angry after that. She said I can't go to the counselor again. I am now a high school freshman. If I go to my counselor again she'll take everything away from me: all of my electronics, my art supplies, EVERYTHING. I don't want to lose contact with my QPP and internet friends because without my phone or a form of communication I'll be a nervous wreck and I will feel alone and just emotionally empty. I don't know what to do. I'm running out of places to go for advice.
I should also add that someone recommended meditation, but I'm often so anxious that I feel as though I won't be able to focus on that
I'm in a slightly similar situation. Try looking up remedies online, that's what I do. I try to make the best of it, but it's hard sometimes.
Online has a lot of CBT stuff you can do at home! Also youtube has a bunch of helpful videos