Before, I used to be really good at english, but now.... it feels like I am falling apart
I can't talk clearly anymore
I can't write properly anymore
I can't even think properly anymore!
I usually think before I say what I wanted to say, but the more I do it, the more it's difficult to fix things up. Words began to mix, especially when I talk.
Forgetfulness is probably one of the main problem I've been having lately. I couldn't remember what I read, saw or even did. I also began to forget all the vocabularies I learned in the past few years.
A few months ago, I decided to hang out with my friends who usually talk using my home language (We are from the Philippines). I didn't want to talk my homelanguage, because people said it's faster to improve your speaking when you talk english more often. However, when I started talking english towards my friends, they began to joke around telling me "ooooh, english now eh?" "woooow english english". That moment, I realized I was being stupid around my friends. Therefore I decided to speak my home language again, eventhough it was not even that perfect (it's been a long time since I haven't spoken my language). At the same time, I began to have anxiety, felt nervous towards my friends. I always make no sense when I talk.
After a few months, i don't know what happened, but my speaking suddenly became unclear. Now when I talk, it sounds like I'm mumbling eventhough I open my mouth wide. It feels like my accent is back. My grammar gotten worst as well.
Anyone got any solution? advices? I think I need a speech theraphy, because well... I can't pronounce "r" properly, and I think I talk too fast, words usually gets fused together (eg. When I talk, itfeelslike I'venver talk before)
and it feels like I have to relearn everything over again!
I also noticed that my tongue feels really sloppy and weak. It's like it doesn't have muscles or w/e. Do I need mouth exercise? or chew gum?
Does ready books help me regain my ability? it's been a long time since I haven't read books. I've been play a lot of game lately.
Please talk to a professional about your situation.