I have been depressed for a long time now. There have been so many factors contributing to it but the biggest one has been me myself. 5 years back, I was that guy who people aspired to be. I ranked in the top 0.1% in several international exams. I bagged a job where I was making 6 figures a month. I was deeply committed to a beautiful girl. But then it all collapsed about a year back. I took the decision to venture out on my own. Within 15 days, my partner quit. Then I found out that my girlfriend had been cheating on me. I struggled hard to keep my startup afloat. Lost my mental balance for a short while only to find myself stuck here a year later. I can't get myself to focus on anything. I am unable to find meaning in anything that I attempt to do. Any business idea I come across, I get obsessed by it for a couple of days but then I loose total interest in it. I was a university level football player. Today, I am a 245 pounder who just thinks about eating. I never imagined my life could turn out like this. I couldn't get a hold of myself then and I feel like I'm losing myself further. I feel like just running away from the world and just vanish. I feel pathetic and lost. I don't know what to do. I don't find motivation in money, women, power or any god damn thing. Nothing motivates me. I am unable to do anything in my life. It has become so difficult and painful for me. I don't know what to do. I feel purposeless and lost. It's like I'm stuck in a limbo. I'm just stuck in a depressive state.
Hi Captain Planet - sorry to read of your situation. It is a painful thing to look back at what was and compare it to what we have become, especially if one is a high achiever and life has been measured on what we used to have. You have not mentioned any medical interventions in your post and I'm wondering whether you have consulted a doctor about how you feel. If not, that would be a first step. Meds may be prescribed which are used to balance your mood. They should be used in conjunction with a therapist/counsellor or psychologist who will help you uncover what is causing the slump in your wellbeing. These steps may be difficult to take, feel uncomfortable at first, but it sounds as if you are wounded and that wound needs attention - just like any physical injury you might have suffered as a Uni football player. It's simply a wound that cannot be seen, but it is no less important. Also, might I suggest that your over eating may have developed as a way of pushing down your emotions and seeking instant gratification. Many of us here on this site can relate to what you are saying and feeling. Make that appointment, follow through, and the best of luck with it. Meanwhile, we are always here to talk.
I feel same way you do what can we do?
You're depressed you need therapy. That's the only way you can get better.🙏Hopefully you try to get help. I agree I think like that too. It's on/off driving me cr*zy. Wish you the best💖