I can't stop thinking that I'm a failure. Been made to feel worthless. Also thought of harming myself again. Please help.
I wish I could help but I'm right there with you, don't know whether you have any faith or pray but I am right now and you are in my thoughts
You are not a failure or worthless, it is not your fault you are the way you are.
There are so many people who don't tell anyone of their illness, i don't get embarrassed any more, if anyone asked me how i feel , i tell them if i am feeling low, but to be fair i cannot go out when i am really low, i don't want to socialise.
I have lost so much out of my lfe due to my depression and i feel very low, but i know it will pass like a storm, but at the minute it more like a season, 4 weeks now, i do go out for a run in the week when it is quieter, i feel better then , and i take the Labrador with me, he his fantastic company, eventhough he lives with my seperated wife.
But you will get better i assure you.
Thank you for that. I was told I was wired wrong in the head. Which didn't help. I also keep to myself if I'm feeling really low. Last night was nearly the end of me. As I realised I don't know how to have fun any more. My mum's looking after my dog as where I'm living she can't live with me. I'm newly separated and finding it really hard. I had a really good cry last night instead of harming myself. I wish I could be confident but I lost that a long time ago. Sorry for going on a bit. But I have no one to talk to at mo.
And thanks for replying
Thank you for being honest. I live alone due to separating from my husband 4 weeks ago. He didn't understand my depression at all nor did his mum.
Thanks again
Hi again.
You are not going on at all, it is so much easier to share thoughts with
people who understand.
My depression caused my marriage breakdown, we still try to get on , but one slight bit of stress i am off, i feel so sorry for my 2 children because i feel a failure, but they understand my illness now, i basically go straight in my bedroom and that's it hybernation.
I know what it feels like to be happy or normal, and i can do well until the stress comes.
I actually think i may need extra meds or completely find a different job, because mine is not good for my symptoms, I just don't know if i would need to retrain in something else, its so difficult.
I forgot to mention.
Everyone thinks i am crazy, but you know what i am far from boring, tbh i think most people are jealous, because i am talkative with anyone , funny, always smiling, and i am well liked, until i have a turn.
And whilst people talk about me there not talking about anyone else, shallow people.
keep your chin up 😊
What is your job?
I used to work in a warehouse. But my depression got so bad I took an over dose. I'm not proud of myself as I upset my daughter and my mum. My son's couldn't care less.
A so called friend said to me yesterday that my head is wired wrong. But he just doesn't understand one bit. My husband who I'm separated from said he understood what I was going though. Then not long after we parted.
Oh well something good has to happen to me one day.. Thanks again
44 tonne truck driver for 23 years.
Your not a failure. Things in life happen to us the we don't understand. And for some unknown reason we find it hard to change. We think to much. We put our selves down. Which we can't help.
Stress comes on so fast that it knocks you off you feet. And then you think so many things. Why has it happened to me. Wish I knew how to put it right
You could retrain if you knew what you wanted to do. So good luck in your decision
Your not at all crazy. Some of my family and friends think I'm mad. Some times I think I must be if they say I am. But when I'm ok I'm completely the opposite. I laugh and have fun with my grandchildren they keep me going.
Being a truck driver is a very stressful job. Dangerous drivers who have no care for others.
So drive safely and keep smiling ☺
Don't worry about the things too much. Try commuting to new places in order to refresh your mood.