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Has anyone been waking up with butterflies in their stomach? Or nervous stomach? Not exactly doom and gloom but just don't want to go to work? I'm not really tired but I don't want to do anything. Also even though I'm on acid reflux meds, I still get breakthrough heartburn. I worry it's something else. I should be getting ready for work, but instead I'm laying across the bed writing this. I'm going to be late again and I don't care. It seems like worry and anxiety are always with me. I'm praying to God this will pass.

Hi known how you feel cant be bothered either dont care anymore just another perimenopausle symptom. like you I just want me back feel down most of the time on citroplam the now feel a bit better but would like to increase the dose.

I know exactly how you feel. I'm anxious and nervous majority of the time. I thought I had gotten over it but when it's time to go certain places that requires me to drive a distance, I instantly get nervous. I'm going out places but it's pretty much local and if I have to go by myself I get right back home as soon as I can. My anxiety had gotten so bad at work that I was either going in late, leaving early, or just not going. Needless to say, I ended up quitting because I couldn't get myself together. I now work from home which is a lot more comfortable but I still have my moments. I'm praying this will get better for all of us.

Im sure it will through time I hope lol

I understand. I have been always energetic, until a year or so ago. I feel slugish, not interested in anything, just surviving. Afraid of going out in the morning, afraid of everything, afraid of being around others. I do not know when does it stop, and I am afraid that it will not, and my rest twenty or something years will be like that.

I decided to proceed in small steps, like reading one page of a book, walking for 15 minutes, enjoying a cup of coffee or tea, but I feel ridiculous: such "achievements"!

HELLO JUANITA, ACTUALLY I WOUL WAKE UP WITH THE WORST DOOM AND GLOOM FEELING AND THE MOST AWFUL FEELING IN THE PIT OF MY BELLY. I CANT EXPLAIN IT BUT I WOULD NOT EVEN WISH THE FEELING TO MY WORST ENEMY. I STARTED ALL THESE SYMPTOMS/FEELINGS ABOUT ONE YEAR AGO, I AM 46 AND I THOUGHT I WAS LOSING MY MIND CRYING FOR ANYTHING DREADFUL ANXIETY DOOM AND GLOOM!!! IRREGULAR MENSTRUATION DRY SKIN, DRY THINNING HAIR! ACHY JOINTS SCARED OF BEING ALONE WORRYING ABOUT EVERYTHING. INSOMINIA! PERI-MENO I AM SURE AND PRAYING FOR RELIEF PRAYING TO HOPEFULLY WAKE UP SOMEDAY FEELING LIKE MYSELF SOMEDAY. NO HRT FOR ME STARTED TAKING VITAMINS, VIT D, B12,B6, BIOTIN, VITAMIN C AND EXERCISE. MY EATING HABITS CHANGED ALSO CANT EAT THE THINGS I USED TOO OR AS MUCH. CUT DOWN ON CAFFEINE AND SUGAR INTAKE AS IT MADE ME MORE ANXIOUS, NERVOUS TREMORS AND UNBALANCED DIZZY. WHEN ALL THIS STARTED A YEAR AGO I WANTED TO RUN LIKE A CRAZY WOMAN, THOUGHTS OF BEING PLACED IN A MENTAL HOSPITAL CROSSED MY MIND. AWFUL!!! JUS HORRIBLE THESE UNBALANCED HORMONES CAN BE TO US DURING THE CHANGE BUT I WANT YOU AND ALL WOMEN TO KNOW WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS!!! WE ARE STRONG! THIS TOO SHALL PASS!!! THE LORD MADE US AND THE LORD WILL NEVER GIVE US MORE THAN WE CAN HANDLE! AMEN!!! HALLELUJAH!!! I CAN HONESTLY SAY I AM NOT THROUGH THE WOODS YET BUT I AM MUCH BETTER THAN WHEN ALL THIS STARTED AND I KNOW THE LORD IS WITH ME EVERY STEP OF THE WAY!!! I AM MUCH MUCH BETTER THAN WHEN ALL THIS STARTED THANK YOU JESUS! THANK YOU!!! I AM STRONG! I AM LOVED AND I WILL SURVIVE!!! I AM WOMAN!!! HANG IN THERE LADIES!!! PRAY HARD!!! BE STRONG AND KNOW THIS, WE WILL BE BETTER , WISER, AND STRONGER BECAUSE OF THIS! THERE IS A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL!!!

Dear juanita

I know exactly how you feel I had the dreaded anxiety and panic attacks but things are better. I do suffer from phobia of open spaces so I still will get that if in that position. I had gastitis due to acid reflux and having a hiatas hernia made it inevitable I got the gastitis. I lost weight and my appetite at the time and this fuelled my health anxiety even more! I had those daya where, yes I just didn't want to go to work but curl up in a ball and stay at home. Things have got better, I hope you feel like your old self soon x

I can definitely relate to what your going through, I went from working 50-60 hours a week and although I have not been released to go back to work (I've had 3 major surgeries. 1. my back (very major surgery). 2. Total right hip replacement 3. Polyps removed and all my surgeries were in a 9 month period. I was supposed too have one surgery and go back to work it's been 18 months and I need yet another surgery. It's been very hard to get motivated I feel like I lost my purpose!!!! The female surgery threw me into menopause (I MEAN THREW MY BODY INTO IT) vomiting every month for a week, more severe migraines, no energy I am physically fit I only weight 104 pounds I'm 5'5 I was a waitress constantly moving and now I get maybe 1 week out of the month that I actually feel human. I also have OCD and when I can't get up to physically do anything !!!!! ITS VERY HARD:-((

I actually think that is a good idea Lena. The small steps make things seem a little more comfortable and not so scary! Don't feel ridiculous. We all do what we have to, to get through this. ((Hugs))

Thank you olimari!! I needed to hear that this morning. I too am praying for all of us. God Bless and ((hugs))

Pinkcatfairy, so you think there was any particular thing that you did that made you feel better?

Yes, I have a lot of trouble just getting up and dressing for work.  I feel like I don't want to move and don't care.  The apathy and depression, doom and gloom, are my biggest problems.  I have to go, though, because I'm struggling with living alone and being around other people at work helps me feel less lonely.  It is a daily struggle.

yes, as someone else said,  it feels like being a child again, finding your way in the world..  so true.

Well I did push myself to still do things, I like swimming and I went through a stage where I felt anxious and panicky doing that but I tried to cut back on caffeine as I think this made it worse and I took a multi vit for over 50's as I thought lacking in magnesium can make you extra anxious (plus painfull joints muscle twitching) convinced me I was lacking in magnesium and the tablets helped after I took them, took a week or so to kick in but they definitely helped x

oh no.  Total hip replacement, did you have trouble with your hips before this.  can i ask your age.  this is scary stuff.  I am beginning to get hip pain and worry what's down the road..

Have you tried the magnesium oil?

Yes I had prior hip pain but the doctor thought it was related to my severe back condition but after the back surgery it was threw the process of elimination as my back doctor explained it to me that he discovered I had more problems I now have 4 herniated disks in my neck and need another surgery but I'm not a candidate for another surgery been put under anesthesia again. My back surgery was 9 hours

oh no!  you've really been through it!  I hope that things really improve for you.  You have not lost your purpose! we will all get through it.  take care of yourself.

Thanks for the encouragement!! Yes I feel you and I pray every single day that this too shall and will pass! πŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌ God Bless everyone that is going through these pains!

Thank you ladies! I do feel better just knowing I'm not alone. I noticed some of you said you were struggling with being alone. I'm single I worry too. I live alone and sometimes that alone sends me into a bit of a panic! I used to enjoy going to the movies alone, but not any more! I'm on a mild anti depressant and Valium(which does nothing Xanax works better). I take a over 50 multivitamin, fish oil, and garlic oil. I have some days when I feel really good, but those don't happen often. I must say I'm relieved it's just butterflies now because a few months ago it was the worst doom and gloom feeling ever in the mornings.