Today has been a bad day and came across this forum so here i am. I am so sad, so lonely and just tired, tired of feeling like this, tired of hurting everyday so tired of the person i have become. I don't ever think of ending things but i do wish it could all just stop, I'm done with feeling so desperately lonely , irrelevant and painfully sad I lost my father 2 years ago and things have gotten steadily worse from there. To be honest things have been hard for years but i smile and act like everything is ok when truth be told I'm dying inside. No one knows how i feel and they just wouldn't understand. I have been talking to a therapist over the phone but was released around four weeks ago and referred for a more intense therapy, not really sure what that means but thats what they told me. With things as they are i don't expect that anytime soon. I have suffered with bouts of depression like most people over the years but always gotten over it. This time is so different, scary different
hi barbara, i think some of this could be loss related. have you managed or been referred to a grief counsellor or seen anyone since he died? is there any other thing in your life that is making you feel so sad? can you pinpoint anything? my doctor has just told me yesterday she wants me to speak to community mental health but to my mind and i am stressed and feel unsafe where i live. i am so scared of community mental health as i feel it’s just all about medication. i won’t take any of it, i don’t want synthetic drugs in my system. you need to decide what you want, don’t let anyone tell you think they know what you need, because thry don’t.