I have been contemplating suicide for a very long time (about 1 year) and I have been so close I put the pills in my hand and am ready to put it down my throat, but then I become to scared and put the whole thing back in the bottle. My thoughts have gone up in the past 2 months because I made a BIG mistake at school and I do not know what will happen (this was 2 months ago) I don't know what to do and I am really scared to kill myself, but at the same time I want to.
Hi Anna301,
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologise for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
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hi Anna, from what i know of suicide the people who did this can't reach out and say. don't let rude, disgusting vile bullies put you off living. i think part of you wants to live, reach out for support and quickly. why should you put up with bullying? nobody should! you are brave you have managed to say help i'm stuck, that 1st stop is tougher than anything.i don't know if you have any support, but you get some. if you're old enough to see your doctor yourself do that. please life is not worth cutting short because of something you did when you were learning. keep reaching out and well done!
Anna 301, Don`t give in to this. Whatever the problem is at School it will turn out to be of no importance at all. Time alone will make you realise this. Just forget all the silly problems. They will turn out to be of no importance whatsoever. Just concentrate and enjoying yourself and getting good marks at School.
There is so much more to life believe me. I am almost 80 years old and yes there care times when I felt like you do now. These feeling will pass. Honestly. Go out and enjoy yourself. Life is short Please dont make it any shorter. You will have so many happy times in the future. Get out there and live life to the FULL. Get me at davejcollins@live.com
Please do not make this decision at this time Anna. If you do you will cheat yourself of watching the entire situation and feelings vanish before your eyes if you will just bide your time, be patient and take baby steps to get out of the state you're in.
Little goals. Set one tiny goal for each day and see if you don't start to feel better about everything when you've done that one little thing.
Something that seems big right now will not seem so big as time passes. We all make huge mistakes but we have to learn to accept that about life.
I hope you've been exploring and/or taking proper prescribed medication for depression and even seeing a therapist if possible.
Just know that everything has a solution but death no matter what you've done or whats hurting you right now tomorrow can change. I was suicidal for 5 years very depressed 3 times hospitalized in attempting to take my life. I look back now and I'm so happy that I made it. Talk to people write your feelings down cry all you need one day your life will get better but it takes time cause we do hurt allot and we think we are weak but in reality we are so strong you really and you are very special for God picked you to live life. Tall to God he listens. I love you please stop thinking about that and start talking to someone. Take care