i am not sucidal but hovering in the lowest point of my life now
for the past couple years.
My dad passed away from cancer earlier this year.
I am a single female in my thirties. And feel completely empty.
My work has slowed down drastically when prior I have also been swamped.
I have friends but feel an unrelatedablity with them.
I am christian and if I were not I would probably try and get the nerve to kill myself.
i am in good shape and have been stepping up exercsing as well as starting welbrutin but I still feel like crap all the time
Hello Anon
So sorry for your loss, we all generally feel empty when we loose someone close, you are not unusual and sometimes we need to grieve. This happens normally in family groups who remember the deceased and discuss the bitter sweet relationships they did have with say your Father.
Generally it can take upwards of two years to recover from a bereavement and if you have no-one to help within the family it may take longer
Do you have any family you can talk to, you may be able to discuss your loss there.
If you have no-one we can give support. I would also advise if you have no family members talk to your GP (Doctor) He may be able to give some CBT to get over your loss
Keep a hold, you know where we are
BOB
hi thank you for replying. i dont have any family. i tried a group support but it wasnt helpful. i talk to my pastor and have followed all of his advice which is to watch exercise, watch what I eat and try and stay busy.
The problem is that at the same point that my dad died my work slowed to a grinding halt. My self worth is in the toilet. And frankly I
cant even imagine what is like to be happy again.
while i have friends where i live, my closest friends are across the country. Also, i have learned not to trouble people too much.
i am hoping at some point the welbutrin will start to kick in.
it really helped to have u respond.
thank u
I know about being a christian and thinking of suicide. This kept me away from that choice. Losing your father is hard. Mine has been gone a long time and I still miss him. Many christians however believe if you are christian you should not need meds. Don't let anyone tell you this. Circumstances of loss and feeling empty happen to everyone at some time. How you chose to deal with it is entirely up to you and we do need these meds sometimes. I have taken these meds for a long time. Trying to throw them out, should never be without your Dr. advising it. You have to come off slowly and with medical help. Keep excercising if you can. Excercise is great for depression. Talk with your pastor, priest which ever and you may find support there. Talking to someone that understands what you are going through can be good. Many people will never understand depression and can be cruel to those that seek help. You may have a depression group in your community where you can find support. I know the saying time heals all wounds is not something you want to hear right now but it will take time to adjust to losing your father. You won't forget, you would never want to but it does get easier to accept in time. The people on this site are very helpful and care about you. Continue to come back anytime for questions, support, and understanding, people that know how it truly is to be depressed. Hope things are better for you soon. Barbara
I too have felt very low in my life and have felt so empty and depressed. Loosing a parent is very hard and can leave you feeling very helpless and hopeless for ones future! Glad you are taking meds for your depression! How long have you been on the Wellbrutin? I am on Lexapro 20 mil for 4 weeks now and hopefully I am starting to feel somewhat better! We all have to take it day by day and boy that can be a battle! Try to stay busy and keep exercising as the doctors claim this can help!
I didn't see where you tried a group, sorry. If you're medicine has no affect talk to you're doctor.
thank you for replying. yes, other member of my church also take meds.
At this point for me, it is a chemical imbalance and cannont be treated just with diet and exercise, alone.
I have been praying a lot just for something to turn around some sign. I do count my blessing but am brutally lonely
i have been on it for two days. lol
i got it awhile ago but forget to take it quite a bit
thanks for the encouragement and your personal story
You have to give it at least 4 to 6 weeks before you see any improvement! Believe me it takes awhile for antidepressants to work!
i think you are right. I will force myself to make sure i take it daily
Please do and best of luck!
How long have you been on your medication
BOB
I am so sorry you feel so bad. I live in USA, was diagnosed in June with PV. I two am glad I found out my problem that way I can deal with everything better. I hope you get help with you depression. Good luck. GP
two days. i have had it for awhile but been bad about taking it
Sometimes the brain has a shortage of a certain drug, your medication will up that dose given time and hopefully you will be able to stop taking those medications within an extended period.
You can go for walks in the country and possible take up swimming or other activities, it is just to lift your mood and give you an oppertunity to meet people especially in say your church or other organisation. If you have just started your medication it can take four to six weeks to get into your system. If you have had the drug from an earlier time and have not taken them you will need to discuss the medication again with your GP as He will need to write you scripts accordingly
BOB
hi
i am hopeful once it is fully in my system i will star to see results
Hi, anon: I am so sorry for the loss of your dad. I lost my mom and dad both within a period of nine months.It has now been 12 and 13 yrs., but still..I just feel empty inside. I had a boyfriend for over 15 yrs. and I thought I would have someone in my life forever, but he met an older woman with lots of money, so now he has invited her into his home and she does all the cooking and everything I used to do for him.
I am a retired paramedic with spinal issues and just had surgery for a terrible prolapse a month ago. My sister came down from Kentucky to help take care of me for a week after my surgery, but she is very bossy, and all we did was argue...she packed her bags and left a day early.
I have three daschund dogs that I live to take care of. Without them I would be too lonely to stay on this earth. I'm a Christian, but had a really bad experience at my last church.
I'm on three different anti-depressants, but yet, I am empty inside with no excitement in my life. I live in the USA, where there is plenty of opportunity, but I am numb and feel nothing.
I just wanted to let you know that we are here for you, and so many of us feel just as you do...Please take care of yourself and message me if you need to talk...Big Hugs for feeling better...xxxxooo