Ideas with what's going on please xx

Mental health
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Hi all, I suffered with anxiety 2 years ago and manged to wean myself of meds and get back to being the old me after about 8 months. I gt myself a part time job, routine and and been feeling great until the last 5 weeks or so my anxiety seems to have reared it's head gain although I am unsure why. 

I have been back to the dr a couple times firstly I tried to handle it myself it no joy, the dr then put me on propranolol as it's always the physical symptoms that get me anxious so that helped with the racing heart etc, I have been back agai and am now on 10mg citralopram I have been on them for 7 days. I was on these before and remember the side effects so wen I feel crappy I just remind myself it's the side effects. What I don't get is today I have been ok but tonight feeling off I keep worrying about my chest and the werid sensations like pressure and pins and needles in my head which I know is my anxiety but so frustrating as I can't shake it - I start thinking about it which seems to make the pain worse and ten make me feel worse - I see to get anxious about being anxious. 

The good thing is I don't quit I can't I have kept busy walke shops I have still been going to work although it has been a struggle as I know it's best to keep going, distraction etc and it all proves that it's my anxiety as when I busy I am fine. 

I do read up on these forums etc when I feel sh*tty as they do help but then does it make us think about things more? Are the meds still getting in my system so it's all mind/body games at the moment? I keep trying to do something different rah day to my normal day so my mind and body get used to being "normal" any other tips would be great. 

This was yesterday however today I have had a good day so is it me and my mind and body adjusting xx

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Also to add the sides of my breast have been hurting but I think it's were I have been holding myself funny from being so tense lately, I also have a torn muscle in my bicep so I know that I have been using that arm funny and awkwardly etc x

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I too was put on citrapram however I totally flaked and found every twitch and symptom was induced by the drug and it seemed to make me worse! Well done you for keeping at it, totally agree distraction/ keeping busy is the key xx 

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I have a question. When you took yourself off of your meds how did you know that your anxiety was gone? I'm on ativan and have been taken myself off of it for months but I still have anxiety, I just don't want to be on any meds no more plus I keep reading that your body can get addicted to the ativan.

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I don't think it ever actually completely went hence why it flared up again but I took myself off meds as I went a got a part time job had routine and the wobbles as I call them just seemed to go away I still had the odd one here and there but ignored it and carried on x

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I have been on citralopram just over a week and the side effects are almost gone and I am feelin better, I just remind myself that nothing is going to happen to me it didn't before and it won't again x