hi everyone. haven’t posted for a while. still drinking 3-5 nights a week. the longest i could manage off it was 3 nights and that rarely happens. was sober 3 days on my librium detox before drinking again. went to AA but you cant discuss reasons why you drink and try to figure out the trigger the way a professional counselor could do. I need to figure out the reason why i do this to myself. i don’t want to do it. I want to be healthy and stop putting my husband through this. I dont want to damage my body anymore. im falling into a deeper hole.
Hi Vicky. I could not stop and simply carried on since my brain and body was craving more although i did want to stop. The guilt and hate within myself was terrible and i had to reach rock bottom until i stopped. We are all different and you are probably not as desperate as i was or i hope not. Counselling would probably help i assume although i never tried it. Tricky to organise i think. Perhaps try to make some goals and gradually reduce?
Hi Vicky. I could not stop and simply carried on since my brain and body was craving more although i did want to stop. The guilt and hate within myself was terrible and i had to reach rock bottom until i stopped. We are all different and you are probably not as desperate as i was or i hope not. Counselling would probably help i assume although i never tried it. Tricky to organise i think. Perhaps try to make some goals and gradually reduce?
Hi Vicky. I could not stop and simply carried on since my brain and body was craving more although i did want to stop. The guilt and hate within myself was terrible and i had to reach rock bottom until i stopped. We are all different and you are probably not as desperate as i was or i hope not. Counselling would probably help i assume although i never tried it. Tricky to organise i think. Perhaps try to make some goals and gradually reduce?
Hi Vicky. I could not stop and simply carried on since my brain and body was craving more although i did want to stop. The guilt and hate within myself was terrible and i had to reach rock bottom until i stopped. We are all different and you are probably not as desperate as i was or i hope not. Counselling would probably help i assume although i never tried it. Tricky to organise i think. Perhaps try to make some goals and gradually reduce?
I know exactly what you mean! I’ve wondered so many times why I can’t drink normally like other people. I can’t manage more than 4 days AF max :(. I’m taking Naltrexone at the moment. Early days but that stops the bingeing but I can’t take it forever.
Hi Vicky,
I stopped a while back , i do get the urge to have a drink , but i do not keep any at home . What works for me , is finding other activities to do, so that i am not bored. I joined gym ( YMCA) , i go for 1 hour most days . As to why, have a good discussion with your husband if you can’t find a professional , he might be able to help with kind but honest feedback.
hi Robin. im not yet physically dependent but I do get cravings. I want to try counseling im going to doc tomorrow to basically tell him im desperate to talk to a professional. ive tried campral but only stayed off the drink for 3 days. didn’t find it helped at all. I have tried reducing too but I just want to stop altogether. I have literally just phoned into work sick again for the morning and im not even drinking tonight im just in such a dark place.
hi daisyjo. I am unable to get naltrexone. I had been taking campral but as I said to Robin there i only lasted 3 days off it.
Hi guy. the thing with me is I drink alone very late at night. from about 11pm until about 3 am roughly. I haven’t been in a bar for a good while. I live 2 mins walking distance from my off license. For whatever reason I like drinking alone and even if i go out with my friends I still continue to drink in the house alone when I get back. Its strange because I have certain movies or certain tv shows that I watch when im drinking. it’s like a wierd habit and associating certain things with drinking. hoping to find a professional to talk too.
Aww sending you cyber hugs Vicky. I really feel for you. I’m the same, not physically dependent but can’t stop the cravings. Naltrexone is the only thing that works for me. There is a lady on here who gives advice on about getting it wherever you live. Not that I’m wanting to push drugs just saying it’s something that works for me x
Thank you daisyjo. do you have details for the lady who gives advice about the naltrexone? x
I can relate , i use to do the same on a regular basis , still do once in a while , like when watching football . I had to stop before it ruin my health. The issue was those lonely times , or when i feel like i need to unwind at the end of everyone schedule .
I am rooting for you , i know you can break this pattern.
She is called Joanna. If you look through posts you’ll find her. Or you could post a new thread asking specifically about finding a prescriber x
Look at the sticky on top of the page! x
to Vicky and DaisyJo. Joanne from The C3 Foundztion has helped 100s of people. Very professional😃
Hi Vicki. I hope, as this post is 2 weeks old, that you are faring better. I am a recovering alcoholic and have not had a drink for 7 years. After detox I found it hard to stay stopped, when I first tried. As Robin2015 said, I had to hit a point where I had to hit rock bottom. But that was me. Some people describe it as a downward elevator, but only you can decide when to get off. Please don’t take this the wrong way but I think you are in a state of denial, you say “…not yet physically dependent but I do get cravings”. Craving is a result of physical dependency, your body saying “give me more, more, more.”; even if you don’t want it, you still have it. AA taught me this, and about the mental obsession, no mater how much I tried to keep it out of my mind, I couldn’t. The association with TV and movies is a good place to start, try to stay away from them at night. I am not trying to promote just AA, but for me it taught me that the drinking was just a symptom of my condition. I live in Bristol, UK and we have 90 meetings a week, they all carry the same essential message, but each one is different. Try a different meeting, I have not had a problem with talking about why I drink, it is that commonality with other members that keep me clean & sober today.