my blood pressure dropped about 4 times in 2014 without any reason. it was not a big deal back then. once it rises it settles i forget about it. never thought deeply about what happened. i got my bachelors on July 2016 , before even turning 22, i have the best friends anyone could ask for, and a supportive boyfriend as well, im healthy and never had financial issues. everything in my life was going on smoothly. until that day came, a weird feeling that creeped in without knocking the door, All in without mercy. i was hanging out with my boyfriend , he was talking to me and i lost track for a second. Then he asked me a question that literally changed my life, a common question that ive heard alot. but this time it was different. " Are you okay ? " from that moment , i felt that my blood pressure will drop, and i will never be safe no matter what i do. i literally do not know what led me to this feeling. i felt that i will be safe if go back home. so i asked him to drop me back. i could not breathe properly until i reached my bedroom. my eyes were wide open all night. im not feeling safe in my bedroom anymore. i got a feeling that as long as i am human, i will never be safe. if every second someone dies in this universe. so why am i not next ? all i can think about is when will i die ? how long do i have before i leave ? will my heart stop. or my liver? will i sleep and not wake up ? things got worse by day. i was hoping that this nightmare will end suddenly, since it came suddenly. but it did not... i had zero background about mental health. i thought people who suffer from mental health are only psychotic. nothing less nothing more. i did not know what was going on with me. i could not eat, because why eat if you are dying anyways ? lets not mention how bad my somatic symptoms were. i did over 20 tests. MRI for my brain , blood tests, sonar for my heart , ECG , not even one doctor mention mental health to me, they either convince me that i might have a problem that revolves around their major, or laughed at me and called me a drama queen. my heart would not stop racing, headaches, i felt like my legs were jelly, and the ground is no longer solid, its a trampoline. wherever i go. sounds were X 10000 louder than what they are. i can not stand crowded places anymore. whenever i lay down and try to sleep i feel an electric like feeling that wakes me up. every single time i go to bed, i feel like this is my last night. when i talk to people, i imagine them as dead bodies. My supportive Boyfriend is no longer supportive, he kept telling me that i am making this all up for attention. After 7 months of hell, i searched the web hoping to find an answer to my endless questions , and i did. i found this forum and read how there are people who suffer from the same symptoms as mine. and they all had " anxiety " , so i looked up the word since English is not my first language. unfortunately i live in a society were the mental health stigma is HIGH. i refused the idea of taking pills at first. And after what i read here of how there people who are suffering from severe anxiety for over 10 years ! i gave up to the idea that this will be something that i have to live with. its nothing but a chronic punishment for god knows what sin. until things went out of control and i decided to see a psychiatric. He told me that he has not seen a case of anxiety that did not Get Better. i did not believe him at first. he suggested Pristiq 50 mg at first. he promised me that things will get better very soon, and it did. one week later things were starting to get better gradually. after 9 months of suffering. i never thought i will get back to life. but i did. step by step, i went to a therapist that helped me as well. but the medication was the main reason i got better. do not let anyone convince you that anxiety is not curable. Believe me it is. if a medicine does not workout for you keep trying until you find what suits you. DO NOT WASTE TIME HESITATING IT. Feel Free to contact me about anything related. im willing to help xx
thank you for sharing your story! it is very familiar. i too hope to be able to share mine one day.
that’s great to hear that you are much better now, I really hope I can be too one day! I’m struggling so much at the moment and j hate it, I’m always convinced it’s my heart and the doctors have got it wrong. I’ve gone back down that road again today and I keep shaking, heart pounding, mouth numb, chest pains. I’ve had checks and apparently I’m all good but it’s so hard to accept all these pains and sensations I get are just anxiety. its crazy. I’m on medication too now, only 2 weeks in but hoping it will start working soon. x
hello,
sorry to hear this, hope your doing well?
i have been having anxiety all through lockdown.
i was really bad then picked up, ive had another turn and now its turned into health anxiety. i have been through every situation and wanting to be dropped at a&e but dont dare.
its got so bad i was calling the doctors for anything.
i have been having numb feeling of the legs and arms sometimes, worse in bed and now i feel like i can feel nerves in my back ect.
i feel so weak, im def stressed all the spots have came back on my neck how i was in lockdown.
but now im scared there is a serious problem
it will work hopefully , worst case scenario if it did not you can always change it. just make sure that the psychiatrist is qualified.
trust me your heart is completely fine since the tests are okay. keep in mind that anxiety is the reason and there is NOTHING wrong with it. xx stay safe
hello i am perfectly fine. i know the covid situation is not helping at all. try not to call doctors, dont feed the need. i used to have numb feeling too , anxiety makes you so aware about everything in your body. please seek help from a qualified psychiatrist and things will be ok soon i promise ! xx
ur most welcome. will be waiting ! xx