I have two versions of me. In the first half of my cycle, I'm happy, confident and motivated; I have big dreams and look forward to achieving them. But then I ovulate, and in the second half of my cycle I have no energy or enthusiasm for anything. Knowing that it's only going to last a couple of weeks is the only thing that gets me through it. But, the thing is, I spend roughly equal amounts of time in each state, so I don't really know which one is the "real" me, if there even is such a thing. So I'm starting to wonder, what happens after menopause? Everything I've found online says that PMDD goes away after menopause, but which version of me will be going? Will I be my best self all the time, or will I be stuck in unending depression? I'm 48 and don't have any menopausal symptoms yet, but this is starting to worry me. Any advice from people who have gone through menopause after years of PMDD would be very much appreciated. Thanks!