Honey, that's normal.. The meds didn't do jack for me on my first ob, but I can say they help now and I've had no pain on my other obs and only mild discomfort such as itching or wiping. I can workout, but I didn't try riding a bike w an ob and don't plan on it either.. Lol. Trust me, I almost passed out one night applying cream when I felt that like 8 bumps popped up in like an hr. I lived w a flash light and mirror, watching the atrocity taking place on my lady bits. The itching.. Omfg the itching your first ob is as bad as the pain! It makes you want to go insane! I'm telling you, Epsom salt baths are your best friend. I lived in the bathtub my first ob for about 3 weeks.. Thank god I worked from home, I feel for anyone who had to go to work. My neuropathy was so bad though, I couldn't even sit up. I was terrified I was going to be like this forever and doctors look at you crazy and say I've never heard of hsv causing neuropathy, herpes zoster yes, but not hsv.. OK.. Well guess what? It does and thousands will attest to it online. I'm sitting in a bath right now typing this to you, cause I can feel this b*stard virus under my skin w the creepy crawly feeling on my rectum, lower butt cheeks and some places on my vagina. It wants to go active cause of my hormones.. About to start my cycle.
Your feeling is understandable, but not necessary. I am not going to lie, that every day I am very cautious of making sure not to touch my face and wash my hands. As long as you wash your hands, no need to worry. The wiping down of the toilet seat is not necessary either, but I don't think there's anything I could say to make you stop that.
Listen to me. You are not dirty. Do you understand me? If that's the case every single person who exists is dirty. We put such a stigma on the word herpes, but news flash.. 90% of the population is infected w at least 4 herpes groups. There are a total of 8, hsv 1& 2 a part of that 8. Chicken pox you had as as a kid? Herpes hhv3, 90% of population has. Kissing disease known as mono? Herpes 4 aka EBV. Never had mono? Neither did I. Get tested for lupus or sjogrens like you did, trust me.. They tested you for EBV and I'll bet you came up positive for an old infection, I did. 90% of population has by the time they're 40 AT LEAST, if not earlier. Hhv5, known as CMV.. Herpes.. Most of us obtained this in childhood. Hhv6 and 7? Herpes.. We all pretty much have these two as well and they've been linked to autoimmune of CNS such as MS. I believe they're the link to a lot of things we don't know yet. I got vital meningitis in my 20s.. Probably from a herpes virus. So yeah.. What everyone is so ignorant to recognize, is they're just as "dirty" as us you see? Cmv is sexually transmitted as well.
So we are all carrying muliples strains of herpes around, unfortunately, because we view genitals as dirty still in society, there is a stigma to it.
It's funny, the other day I was thinking good gawd time has flown by since I got this. Like life seemed to happen even faster after getting it, so just no that this too shall pass. 5 months ago I was you and I never thought I'd be handling it like I am now. But I do know that it was important to me since joining this forum recently, to respond to every new case and give them hope. I wanted to die too. I seriously thought about it hard.. If it weren't for my dogs, I'd done it.. Not just cause of herpes, but a myraid of others. Autoimmune diseases cause depression or make it worse. I just got started on prystiq and I was against being on meds again.. Nothing has helped and haven't been on anything for a yr n half. I've been on it like 3 weeks now and I feel a difference and I have zero side effects! Except the first day I took it . normally pmsing I have melt downs, especially since getting older and I'm sure my body being on its way yo thyroid failure as well doesn't help; alas, I'm holding up really well.. I had been having panic attacks the last 8 months when pmsing and knock on wood, so far so good! Msg me any time. Im always here.