I’m so lost.

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progressively this has come to be.
i was nervous of having something and messed with every little imperfection i found and am thinking i myself caused this.
it started with what looked like little cuts and 1 chancre looking thing but i messed with everything trying to make it go away and got some vaginal cream to help make it go away and i feel like it might be making it worse ..

i experienced absolutely no pain before things appeared. honestly i still have no pain except for when pee hits it occasionally not every time and when i wipe i feel it but i cant say its the worst pain ive ever experienced.

i do have a swollen, tender lymph node in my groin and some itching mainly at night time when i apply the cream but other than that, thats it.

i can go all day without feeling them its just me thinking about them because i know they are there. i go to class and can sit with no pain and i can go to practice and workout and completely forget about them with no pain..

i’ve ruled out chlamydia and gonorrhea.

you should go get it swabbed it looks like herpes

cant get into the doctor till monday

this is what it looks like today

yeah, looks like herpes I’m afraid. don’t worry. get it swabbed and you can deal with it and get it under control. it looks so sore, I feel for ya. its a horrible pain. just hang in there, its not the end of the world if that is it. you will.come to terms with it and if it is herpes then check out the herpes virus association (UK based charity) they saved me when I found out xxx