The last 2 days have been a huge struggle, not copin 2 well am so tired and lifeless shut away curtains and doors locked i cant face any1 or anything constant panic the tears just keep falling am at a loss feel like im falling from a cliff and c no bottom havin unhealthy thoughts and acts constantly in a rage manly at myself PLEASE CAN ANYONE HELP BE4 ITS 2 LATE :cry: :cry:
Hi there Shadow. first of all let me tell you that I and a lot of other people here can relate to what your going through. I've gotten a lot of comfort in the past just from knowing I'm not the only person in the world to feel like that. The good news is that it does go away. It takes time, and unfortunately there's no telling how much time, but it will go away.
I know the hardest thing for you to do right now is to reach out to someone and let them in, but that would bring you a huge amount of relief and comfort once you've made the call. Whether it's family, a friend, or a professional, even the Samaritans if you cant deal with anyone you know. Just having someone in the same room can help at a time like this.
Please keep us up to date with how you are feeling, and know that there are people here who are sending your thier thoughts.
D.
Hi, how you doing? I hate to look back on those dark days but believe me, i've been there aswell. So many people have. I know it's hard and it sounds like hearing a broken record but i think you need to go back to your GP or psychologist and tell them exactly how your feeling. Everything including those negative thoughts! They can take action to helping you. Please seek help, you can't go on like this!
Let us know how you get on x
I understand how daunting it must seem but youve got to get yourself some help, if you have a partner cant they visit the GP on your behalf, the GP might not be able to talk about you specifically (because of privacy rules) but theres nothing stopping your partner from talking about you and the GP can talk theoretically about how you can get help
TERRIFIED 2 GO OUT AM SO ALONE SO SCARED OF LIFE WOT I DONE SO BAD 2 FEEL LIKE THIS WILL IT END? :cry:
If you can't go out then you need to pick up the phone. Yes it will end, but it will end a lot sooner if you get the help you need.
I GOT SO MUCH 2 SAY BUT NOTHIN 2 SAY. IS THAT NORMAL. TOOK A DROP IN MEDS LAST WEEK IS IT POSS 2 DROP SO QUICK FEEL LIKE A CHILD TRAPPED IN A BUBBLE RAPIDLY DROUNDIN IN MY TEARS SORRY SOUNDS CRAZY I NO LIVIN IN FEAR :sorry:
If your terrible feelings are because your medicine has been reduced too drastically the quicker you get to your GP and tell them your worry the quicker it can be rectified
Go for help! They kept changing my medication and the doses and i felt so low! Things were actually geting worse. You need to get it sorted! You can't go on like this. Please go for help x
BEEN BACK 2 MY GP 2DAY PUT ME BACK ON 150MG SERTRALINE I HAD TURNED IN2 THE DEVIL. SPENT A COUPLE HOURS WIT COUNSALOR AND WITH PYCOLIGEST ON THURS (DESPERATLY NEEDED SHOULD OF GON EARLIER WHEN WILL I LEARN) THANK U ALL 4 TAKIN TIME 2 REPLY NEED 2 GO AM A BIT MASHED UP AND IN MESS. 2 MUCH IN HEAD NO TIME GET IT OUT. :cry: :cry:
Tell us how you get on
How are you getting on Shadow? Haven't heard owt from you in a while x
Sorry not being postin much and after all the support and advice u all give and taken time 2 reply, have found that dark lonly scary road that leaves me livin in fear, but after alot of extra sopport and change of meds there is a faint light again, i no it early day am feelin grotty but med change never good goin on past experiance am sure u will agree. It so goon 2 no othes r out there 2 talk 2 and understand. BIG THANK U 2 EVERY 1.
:cry: Shadow...are you okay? Hope you are!
I wish i new how 2 answ that. Not no ware 2 start. :huh:
How can u b so high but feel so low?. Does any1 else feel like this or understand wot i mean. Im startin 2 dread goin 2 my gp all i seem 2 do is moan or have new problems ijust get sick of complaining all the time have i reached the end is this 2 b me now. Its so up and down at the moment from min 2min. I feel like somebody is turnin a light switch on and off in my head and the fuse is about 2 blow.
Exactly! Well explained!!!!
Going back to bed!!!! Partner slammed door when he left.
I have my mums100% understanding on this now!
She has told me to chill! Tread carefully, and not to let the bully get me down, but god I am there allready!!
Yeah...I also feel to embarassed to go back to my GP. He is probably a good doctor and stuff and listened to me winning on and on and on and on!! But I cant hurt my children!!!! Its my fault I had children with him....why should I hurt them because of my failings???????
Help me, someone. I am feeling incredibly (out of control). I stood ahainst a wall, holding myself and cried for 45 minutes, elderly lady put her hand on my arm, and told me of her struggles, nice lady, sorry but it did not help me, (apart from the fact she was nice). I just want sleep now, but cant seem to sleep so restless and fed up and one of my toenails needs snipped and its digging into my toe.
So up and down. I had such sweaty feet on my way home, so took off my crocs, and lol walked in my bear feet :oops: 8) , So as I was walking , I then found it really funny, like people are staring at me, and for the first time in ages,,,,,,,,dont give a toss, laughing at myself and thinking eff of you Mr.....do you want a picture or something???????? (This of course is just before my 45 minute breakdown against wall in street). Took me an hour and a bit to get home. Home and I want to sleep, but think I am going to go and play on some swings if I can find any.
Ive found a lump under my left oxter, my boobs have got bigger on this...lol.....not that any pervery will dare to come near them.
My appetite has increased on this pill. Managed a lunch today.
Should I ring my cpn and tell her what shappening , or just not bother.Katy, calm, cool down and play on the swings. Another thing, I hate this gutted , drained feeling in the pit of my stomach. Pins and needles gone, and not so dizzy. But realised today that I am feeling tactile, keep having to touch walls and plants excetra. has anyone else had similar experiences on this pill. Or am I bonkers?????
Oh erm and I do apologise for yesterdays rant on the citalopram forum)
Huh......I dont remeber, i dont recall, I have no memory of anything at all. (Guess who said this to me...at his convience)? Think I have a sore smelly toe. :cry: :P Right , Ill chat later , i am going to play on the swings, tc, tt
It's time to phone your CPN or go to the docs. Anything could happen in these out of control moments. Pleeese Katy you seem such a bright and intelligent person. Someone needs to help you get well.
Has aaaaanyone else had chronic butterflies in their stomach on this and a bit shkay, does this drug kust take you through the motions ...or what? IOr maybe Ive eaten something. :cry: