Ive been having unprotected sex with a new partner which started about a month ago and it now really hurts to wee, ive checked to see what it looks like down there now im freaking out! I'm not sure if its a tear from having rough sex yesterday or if it could be herpes? I'm too scared to go to the doctors as if it comes back positive I'll probably get really suicidal. I tend to dwell on things really bad. Does anyone know what this could be?!
It looks like tear from rough sex… herpes usual look a lil white and in a circle like shape
but the best way to know for sure is going to the doctor 
It doesn’t look like herpes, it’s probably just a physical damage caused by rough sex, but whatever it is - there is absolutely no reason to be so fatal about it!