I'm a 17 year old female. I've been experiencing intrusive thoughts for about 2 months. It started with me worrying about hurting my pets, then the intense fear of hurting my parents. I watched some videos about it and how to work around and and I was pretty much fine until about a week ago. I was scrolling through my Facebook feed and saw a picture of a child, and at the back of my head I was like "What if I hurt children?" And I immediately started to panic. I've been having intrusive thoughts about hurting children for about 5 days and it's escalated to being afraid of sexually hurting someone in any age group. I've had several breakdowns thinking about it. I'm afraid i'm going to go crazy and lose control and hurt someone I love. I'm afraid i'm going to commit some kind of crime. I'm afraid if I talk to someone about this i'll be locked away forever. In the back of my mind I've even considered suicide to avoid hurting someone else. I'm so scared and I don't know what to do. I feel so disgusted and ashamed and I want it all to stop so badly. Has anyone else experienced obsessive thoughts like this? All these ideas in my head disgust me and I've even lost sleep over it. I've stopped eating as much. I feel like i'm going to turn into a monster. I know i'd never do anything violent or illegal EVER but the thought is still there and I obsessively worry about it every moment of my day to the point of nausea and physical pain. I'm afraid that this stress is going to result in serious physical problems. Please help me I am begging you
Hi!
Have you been to counseling or started medication?
I plan to go to the doctor next week and also tell my counselor about it, but i'm afraid of being judged or told that i'm a terrible human being. I'm afraid that there's no treatment or anything to make these thoughts leave.
You wont be judged by them.There is help with this. Please get some help.
I have thoughts and feelings about doing silly things sometimes, like hitting cars etc, my counsellor told me its ok to have these feelings but wrong to act on them. I am now on diazepam for my anxiety and I still have ups and down days but counselling and being able to release those feelings really helps me. Ask your GP for counselling.
Hi sayri
i feel that you need to talk to someone and get some help please do not be afraid to reach out and talk to someone for help. These thoughts can be controlled and the way you are talking before you do react reach out and talk to someone. At your age you should be thinking about college not all this stuff.
You are not going to get into trouble just reach out and talk to some one a trusted adult and do not be afraid of being judged
Don't worry about being judged sayri these are just thoughts that you have that you need to talk to someone about.
There is treatment out there