I have suffered instrusive thoughts for years on and off ( I was 5 years free until recently)
They have come back and floored me😖. I can handle (just) the vision ones where I am violet and sexual but recently it seems to be aggressive thoughts. Like when my nephew was crying I thought just die or when it was awful rain I thought hope that lady gets soaked. Others were that I don't want my baby anymore,hope she chokes and me making a sucicide pact.
I am freaking out as these words come from nowhere. I love my family. Nearly every good thought I have is followed by a thought like above. I'm actually scared to think almost.
Please can someone shed light. I feel so alone.
Ps: I take Citalapram -recently changed to 30mg (6 days ago)
Hi there kim I'm sry ur going through such a bad time,I've had intrusive thoughts in the past still have a few now to be honest...All I do is say to myself yeah watever blah blah and don't let them go any further,I know it's hard but u can't let them rule you if u have a thought just say to ur self it's never gonna happen blah blah and so on...Once the meds kick in they will subside and u will be able to manage them...take care.....p.s it may be the increase of the cit
Thank you so much for replying Ethan. Do you just acknowledge the thought then move on. I know this is the trick but struggle some times.
I am also worried about becoming obsessional . When I see numbers or colours or anything really I sometimes think what if I can't get that number out my head and then it sticks. Actually going crazy : ( xxxx
Sorry to hear about what you're experiencing. Obsessive and intrusive thoughts are the worst, and the more they happen the more we convince ourselves that these are valid thoughts, when they are actuall not. Just remember that the negative thoughts are not the real you, and once you get better the thoughts will subside.
My psychotherapist told me that OCD is usually a by-product of anxiety. The Cit is supposed to be effective in treating not only anxiety, but also OCD. 30mg is a pretty standard dose, but there are people known to be be on 40 mg.
What I find usually helps with the OCD is some sort of outdoors activity (even if it's just stepping out of the house), or exercise. Try keeping your mind active and constantly stimulated, inactivity leads us to dwell on our thoughts and the more we dwell the worse they become.
Morning kim.... yeah just don't think to much of it just say to ur self yeah ok now move on and think happy thoughts, if u think of becoming obsessional well that's just another thought to worry about u need to break the cycle....do crossword puzzles to occupy ya mind worked for me...listen to music on headphones also worked for me...take care and get well soon