Does anyone ever feel like maybe you made it all up, you don’t really have anxiety and you have made a big deal out of nothing? I know my issues aren’t as bad as many of those mentioned on here but they are enough for me to know something isn’t right.
All my life the idea of traveling has filled me with panic. I worry that I’m gonna die and that God is mad and going to kill me. I wake up in the middle of the night in a panic and I can’t calm myself. Another thing that has troubled me for years is what if I’m really not going to go to heaven. This is one of the worst things I ever had to deal with. Church, gospel music, or talk about religion filled me with panic and my chest was constantly tight. I sometimes felt like I couldn’t breath and on more than one occasion I think it caused an anxiety attack. I was constantly evaluating my feelings to see how I reacted to things said in church. Did this or that make me feel good or bad? Why or why not?
Then this year I think I may have developed some forms of ocd. It’s made me push people away because interacting with them felt like too much. I comb over anxiety and ocd articles and forums to see if anyone feels like I do. To varify that what I am dealing with is a real thing, but I don’t know anymore. I still worry a lot but the anxious feeling isn’t always there. So do I really have anxiety?