I’ve had anxiety since I was a kid and I’m 19 now. I get a lot of obsessive thoughts mainly. After hearing about the suicide of Jonghyun from the K-Pop group, I’ve been having obsessive thoughts about depression and suicide and I don’t know why. The same thing happened after I watched the suicide scene in 13 Reasons Why. I get all these terrible thoughts about how suicide is the answer and life isn’t worth living. Does this mean I am actually suicidal or is this because of my anxiety? I know I should see a therapist but these thoughts are so scary and complicated, I don’t even know how to put them into words.
I'm so sorry that you feel this way. Remember there are people in this world that love and care about you and they would miss you if you are not here. Also, how can you make life better if you don't give yourself a chance to? You are very young and have a lot left to do on this Earth. I have horrible anxiety but I have a lot to live for. Take comfort in knowing you are not the only person who has ever felt this way but also remember it can and will get better.
Ur too young, dont waste ur life, god gave us one life, so we need to cherish it and be thankful, no one can say that life is easy, life is always hard, always having up and down, suicide is not a shortcut, instead of thinking a suicide thought, why dont u think to fight, fight for ur family, i know is not easy, but ask help and support from ur family, ur not only one, me too have anxiety and depression, but everyday i choose to fight for my life, everytime i wakeup i didnt forget to say thank you to god, for another day of my life, when i feel lost and i want to cry, i pray, and i feel better, suicide is not the answer, fight and survive, talk to someone who can help you, and understand u, merry christmas,
People can discuss in their own mind regards suicide or keep mentioning it as a habit.
In the past I have done that myself and in my case it becomes a habit like biting your mails of picking your nose.
To be honest I would not be that interested regards Pop Stars and wondering why they did it or how etc.
All I would really say about Suicide if you are in danger call NHS Information Line on Tel 111 and ask for Help if you feel in any danger.
I tried about ten years ago and was brought back. I am still not trusted and it also jiggers up your reputation. The treatment to bring you back can be very nasty.
Enjoy your life
Merry Christmas
BOB
Hey,
First of all, I want you to know that you are not alone. I had been going through some health and future related anxiety when I heard about the same story of the Shinee group member. Out of no where I stared to have anxiety about becoming suicidal and loosing motivation to go on. I started to distrust myself. All these things made my anxiety worse. What we need to recognize is that these are just thoughts. They are intrusive and scary but thoughts are not call to action. Think about all the weird things you have thought about, that you will never do. When it comes to people with anxiety, our thoughts can become unreasonable and repetitive. This causes more fear. I have yet to talk to a counselor/professional about this, which I will and recommend you do too (they are the only ones who can direct us through the correct thought process and/or medication). They are the only ones trained to help us, even if they may not completely understand what you mean, at least they can direct you in a specific path. Remember that the people who's stories you are paying attention to are not you. Those stories are not yours. Suicide is not the end to our problems, it is the end to us and everything we stand for. Period. It is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And it's a choice, not an impulse or thought. So trust yourself. Before I read your thread, I thought I might be the only one impacted by his death this way. But now I think we are not alone. Imagine what people close to him (or bigger fans) might be feeling. Also, this seems to be a though that occurs to people with anxiety (according to my Google reserch). Some called it "suicide obsession, not suicidal thoughts". Definitely talk to a professional and explain the situation as best as you can. They can help you learn to direct your thoughts in the correct direction. Until then, talk to someone you trust. Do what you enjoy doing. And remember, suicide is a choice not a thought. And, people who have been suicidal but decided to give it another go, don't regret their decision (according to stories I heard). Thanks for reaching out and sharing your story. Made me realize that I'm not alone.
Thank you for the reply, I really appreciate it. I definitely know that life is beautiful and there’s a lot to live for. It’s not really that I actually get suicidal thoughts exactly, it’s more that I get intrusive thoughts about suicide, if that makes sense. When I hear about someone committing suicide in the media, I find these intrusive thoughts get a lot worse and then I start fearing that I’m actually becoming suicidal. It’s really horrible but I’m trying not to think of it.
Hello Kim
Yes thoughts of suicide can become habit forming where to patient has no intentions of taking their life.
However this can originate from a possible attempt in the past, or a form of threat to people around them.
Even if this is the case, we should always take this as serious especially if the person may show At Risk activities that may be just a very base attempt.
Most people are not trained to understand this habit should look for help by contacting the GP or NHS Information Line on Tel 111
BOB