Hi, well I think this is normal but honestly now I don't know what is. So, all throughout the day I have smaller anxiety attacks that last for like 10 or so minutes and I can usually calm myself down and suppress them, but for some reason in the afternoon around 5pm until I finally fall asleep I normally have an onslaught of them, the demons come out, and they are about stupid stuff which I hate. Like things I did months or even years ago that I have no control over. And I am at a more stressful part of my life I would say, which is this coming school year is my senior year and now I have to worry about going to college and getting the money for that and doing good in school and then later finding a job to pay for all this. It is just all so much for me right now, i stay calm on the out side for my friends and family and act like I have everything under control but I really don't, I try but I don't think I do enough, I could do more but it is too much. I have a whole life ahead of me and it is just so much. And on top with this stupid anxiety which won't let up, and it is mostly about stupid stuff in the past and stuff in the future, and it is like a thing that I can just expect to happen, like no matter what I start to get very anxious and breathing heavy and higher heart rate at around this time. I hate complaining because I know my life is not nearly as bad as some people have it, I know it could be much worse, but it still could be better, I could be better. I feel I shouldn't be feeling this way, senior year should be fun but it is just killing me. Well I started off with a simple question and now it became this so I don't know what to title this now, so anyway thanks for reading. I guess I needed to vent.
You are anxiety, and panic ridden. Why are you not in touch with your family doc,and on a antipressant. Don't you want to be done with feeling like this. My goodness do yourself a favor, and get your life back.
I mean antidepressant, sorry for the type o
It seems more complicated than that. Than just going to the doctor and I do want to just I don't want to scare my parents they have never seen this side of me. And well it is at a weird point where sense some of the day I feel ok, not as anxious and other parts of the day I feel absolutely horrible. So it is like when I am not feeling bad I am like oh, cool maybe just maybe this was just a phase, maybe it is all gone now, then it is like nope send everything we got. If that makes sense. It is just I can't, you don't know how much I want to get help and not feel alone in this stupid fight against myself but I can't, not yet. Probably once I move out but not yet.
Can you have a talk with your own doctor. You can call and ask for a call back and ask how to handle all this. This is your life too my friend. Complicated or not you need you in this life. Dont be afraid to seek help for yourself, already a huge red flag
What's already a huge red flag? Just, what if it is nothing, what if tomorrow or something it just goes away and I make a big fuss about nothing. I don't like drawing attention to myself. And I don't want to somehow pull my parents into it. Just ah. I wish it was easier, that I could just go out too the doctor or something and figure this out without pulling people into it. I don't want my friends or family worry about my anxiety, that would be horrible, I would feel like a burden, I would be one.
Its real or it isnt. Panic attacks arent a phase. Growin your hair long is a phase. Wearing boots in the summer is phase. Flipping out inside praying no one can see your fear is not a phase. And if you manage it now you will save yourself a future of hell. Thats the truth. The fact your scared to even tell about it doubting yourself,is sad.you know why ...some cbt therapy and maybe, not even saying you need any, a little meds to keep the edge off can give you a happy, productive life.your parents would choose that for you if they knew. In a heartbeat. You are not a burden, you are a gift to this world. Thats what your missing in all this. You matter!p
Ok, ok, true. But like how would I, could I tell them. Just go down one random day and be like, "hey mom dad, you know that kid you used to know, all strong and happy and living a fun and happy life with little care in the world, well that actually never, or rarely existed, yep I am none of that, I am just a anxiety ridden kid who doesn't know what to do exactly.". No, I don't think I could do that to them, I feel it would hurt them too much, not the fact that I have anxiety but how they missed it all these years. I don't think I could do that to them. And I wouldn't be the "perfect" child they see now. I think it would just be too much. it seems almost better to just wait until I leave the house and do it all on my own. That sounds weird, the reason why I want to leave my parents house is not because I want to get away from them but actually because I want to protect them from my troubles and deal with them myself.
You made me tear reading that. I would grab you and hug you but i know what your dealing with. I felt your oain so you know. Ok grab a pen a paper. Rite out whats going on and i want you to take them thru a panic attack as articulate and detailed as you can. Then at the end(try to keeo this to two pages) you write i love you please help me. You walk over to the one you feel closer too or the one who cares for you when your sick and say i need to tell you something but i dint want to mess it uo with nerves so i wrote it to you..please read this its important. Then stand there or sit there or whatever. Sometimes an immediate reaction wont occur, it has to be absorbed but within a day or two wothiut a doubt you will get a reaponse and im sure some help. Go for it. Go get your life and your future love you have EVERyTHING to gain here. Go write it and details are very important. This is manageable okay but you need help with it.
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Ok, I will, I may, I don't know. I want to. Just not today, not right now, I can't. It will probably take a few days for me to write it, it would need to be perfect. And just, the timing my birthday is in 15 days, school is starting in like 20... It is just alot.
Please listen to me. Please
Ok, I will try just I am toooo stressed right now, I need to calm down. I don't want to make any rash decisions. I can feel my stupid heart.
Ok take your time writting it, but write it all out. Forget whats going on otherwise dont make excuses this anxiety youre dealing with is a terrible bully. You can be well on your way to being happier if done now by the time school starts. You cant imagine how much of a relief this can be once you hand over that letter. Im an adult I'm being very honest with you here..write the letter and give it over. No excuses anymore, this needs help okay.
Ok, thanks honestly. If you have the time can you please check in on me in a day or something, make sure I do it. My mind and anxiety does a very good job at talking me out of doing stuff.
This is not a rash decision at all. You are too young to understand ..this is the correct way out of all this. What a wonderful birthday gift to gift yourself.. Self love and knowing this is all fixable..but needs outside help.dont be scared and do not allow your anxiety to punish you further by not seeking the help you deserve and need. Believe me your parents have heard of it and so has your doctor.
You can use messages. See it . Anytime you want. Sometimes my wifi goes down but dont think i havent checked it. I do.You click the name and can send me a message anytime. you do this for you okay. IF i were you i start writting this tonight. Detailed. Two pages. You might need two days to do this. You got this. Go for it. Wow this time in like three months from this moment you can be a whole new person. Dont you realize that? An anxiety disorder is common but you catch this and get help now whilst your young its a lot easier to help you then when your older. Im so proud of you! Please go and do this.
Ok, I will, would this also help my shyness I guess. Like I don't talk a whole lot, I have a lot to say but like sometimes it seems too risky or like I don't want to be judged or something. And what would a therapist or whatever do anyway? Like, I don't know. How much would it cost, would there be a time frame? If you know.
Hi Sheldon
If you love your parents and they love you you need to tell them immediately. When my son was 28 he came and told me of his anxiety. We went to doctors and got help. When he was having bad times he would come home and cry in my arms. He always says that was a great comfort to him. My anxiety runs all day and then dissapears at night. Have had a very bad year of emotional upsets which is why I am not in a good place. I am having treatment from my doctor. You too need a doctors help. This will not go away on its own. If you broke your leg, would you try to hide it from your parents. Your head is broken, do not hide it. You will feel much better when you have their support and protection. Do not waste your youth deal with it now. Your anxiety is stopping you from telling them, it wants to keep you all to itself. Do you know 1 in 4 people suffer with some form of anxiety. I talk to anyone who will listen about my anxiety, I am not ashamed of it. Act now, do not listen to the anxiety in your head any more, go to your parents immediately.
Not immediately but I will in time. Just not now. Like a day or two maybe 3.