Hello everyone, I’m a 19 year old girl and I have been dealing with violent and sexual/pedophile intrusive thoughts for about a year now, every day they won’t go away and they are very distressing to me.
I have spoke to a psychiatrist who thinks I have ocd intrusive thoughts, I’ve had therapy within this year but not therapy to treat the ocd. Anyway, as I said these thoughts would distress me and make me feel disgusting and make me question myself everyday if I’m a pedophile (which I don’t want to be) but the past 2 weeks for some reason, when I get the thoughts I’m not reacting to them how I normally would. If I had a thought about a child or something, I would get angry and upset and want the thought to go away.
Whereas now, I’m still getting the thoughts, I don’t want them but they are not causing me as much distress as they used to. I’m not saying they don’t p**s me off or annoying me because they do, but I’m just not getting as distressed as I normally would. Which I believe to be very weird???
Is this because the thoughts I am thinking are actually real? And now I’m just accepting who I am or something? I don’t want to be a pedophile? But in reality, does this mean I want these thoughts? I’m really confused and I need someone’s opinion, because this is driving me insane!
Please reply and help!