My partner passed away suddenly aged 35 last January with a un detected heart condition, and since then i have had a number of health problems myself.
I started getting chest pains after it happended and was admitted to hospital a few times where i have blood tests on my heart that showed i was absolutley fine. The doctor put me on Zantax to try help and these did and i stopped taking them in June last year. Since then i have strange weeks where i feel sick (but not sick), dizziness, headaches, spaced out, feeling of collapsing (but i dont), aching allover my body from throbbing in my wrists, to pain in my back and shoulders and i think i am getting better then they just come back for no reason ! Today i woke up feeling fine, had a shower brushed my teeth and felt sick, then after 2 hours it eased off but i felt spaced out and like i was floating then again a sudden onset of feeling sick ! I have now had my lunch and feel ok, apart from a little dizzy ?
I regular do the deep breathing as the hospital told me to after my panic attacks, i no longer have caffiene but cant quit the smoking (this may help) ! As soon as i go to the hospital/doctor and they reassure me i feel fine a little better. I have had blood tests and found out i cant absorb iron (ferretin levels) so do take tablets for this when i remember. Am i going mad ? are these migranes ? is it something else ?
Thanks all......x
Hi Joanne,
I picked up a virus whilst it was all coming to ahead for me. I couldnt tell if it was the anxiety or the virus for a few months before Christmas. The onset of the anxiety was the complete breakdown of everything I held dear, a complete breakdown of my life, everything changed and through the stress I had a breakdown. Nothing seemed real, sounds were louder, I ached from head to toe, constantly felt sick and confused and a feeling of inpending doom hasnt left me since. I do have good days but they are few and far between.
The CBT doctor explained that although the body is designed for stress, it cant handle constant stress over a long period of time and eventually it will manifest. I hope you get to the bottom of your symtoms but they do sound like anxiety.
Sounds like anxiety to me, been suffering with it for a year now, one thing I have learnt is looking for a reason or things that might make it go away just make it worse. I stopped going out drinking, cut out all caffeine, took up yoga, started meditating. Some things help but to be honest because I've changed my life so much, I just feel completely displaced. Basically, your anxiety will make you worry about every little detail in your life. I'm just trying to accept the wierdness and carry on as normal as possible. It's incredibly difficult but I'm a year in and nothing I've tried has made any lasting difference. So I guess it just a matter of time and a bucketload of perseverance.
Hearing others that have been through it and survived helps, hell I had it myself before 10 or so years ago and went on to live a totally normal , happy life. Then for some reason I thought it would be a good idea to try cannabis. Bad idea lol.
hope you find some relief soon x
Hi Joanne,
I am so sorry to hear what you have been through this past year. Everything you have mentioned I can say that I have felt at some point in time (sometimes separately, sometimes together) when I get anxious myself. It is miserable and can be very scary.
I am not surprised that you are feeling like this following what has happened to you. 
However you may find that not taking your prescribed medications regularly may also be prompting your symptoms I don't know. Have you asked your pharmacist or doctor what you can experience if you aren't taking them as prescribed?
If you are forgetting to take your medications, have you tried putting an alarm on your phone, or using a pill organiser where you can put your pills in the different sections (ie morning, noon & night, or alternatively in different days of the week). I do this with my blood pressure medication so that I know I have taken the correct amounts per day.
Did the doctor think that your chest pains were psychosematic? (ie you are thinking about it, so your brain is making you feel chest pains)? I only ask as when I was young I lost my beloved Grandmother to a sudden heart attack. I knew that she had died around 11 - 11:30pm.
For weeks I lay in bed terrified that I was going to die of the same thing. I would feel terrible pains up until 11:30pm and then they would suddenly go and I could then go to sleep. It was as if I thought that you could only die at that time of night. It sounds ridiculous, but that is exactly what happened for weeks afterwards. Could the same thing be the case maybe?
Obviously if you are having chest pains you should always get them checked out. Better to be safe than sorry.
My un-trained view is that you are not going mad at all. You sound to me like you are still grieving. And that is fine. Remember that everyone deals with things at their own pace and there is no right or wrong amount of time for dealing with these sorts of situations.
Take Care.