I am 48 and feel like im losing my mind and like i have the flu everyday. Long story short i have always had some anxiety and ocd and digestive issues but with a lot of stress it really kicked into gear and the only thing that help me was working out. About a year and half ago i was working out hard and had cut out a lot of food. I unintentionally got down to 92lbs. I am now 107. I stopped getting a period for about 8 months and its been a living hell. I did get a period oct-dec but havent this mo yet. I know i put my body under a lot of stress. Have been to so many Drs and eveeything comes back normal yet i have......horrific anxiety, vivid weird dreams and sometimes feel like im having a seizure in my sleep, terrible head pressure i feel like my nose is going to pop off and my head weighs 50 lb, heightened senses that i can only describe as torturous, burping, nauseua, gas, bitter taste horrible breath, an exhausted but overstimulated feeling i cant relax, weak and shaky muscles, uncontrollable thoughts non stop talking to myself in my head, dry skin and a lot of vaginal mucus that will just hang there when i go to bathroom TMI I know-sorry. Have had so much bloodwrk, pevic ultrasound, cat scans, ultrasound of kidney bladder, brain MRI. I eat the same food everyday breakfast, lunch and dinner because i feel like my body is rejecting everything. I dont do anything anymore except cry almost everyday and pray. I have 2 teenage daughters that i feel like i have completely let down and i cry everyday thinking of what i passed down to them and what theyr going through now and are they going to experience what im feeling. As a mother- thats the worst torture of all.
So sorry for how your feeling but as you have had so many bloods and tests done its more than likely you are peri menopause i had an hysterectomy at 39 but kept my ovaries now at 47 there just starting to die and my symptoms are through the roof anxiety to the point iv had 4 wks off work, palpitations sweats,fatigue,aches and pains,lumpy boobs,no sex drive,dizzy head,blocked sinuses the list goes on and on and its so hard to understand that its just do the lack of hormones and that its not something more serious when i first started feeling this way i convinced myself i was going to have an heart attack wich just made the palpitations worse and more frighting but posting my first message on this site really helped with all the messages i got back saying so many other women are going through the same rubbish and more so be reassured its more than likely to be the start of menopause and theres a lot of help out there telling you how to cope better and what to take to help the symptoms a little but best of all this site does ease your mind that your not alone so big hugs and hang on in there xx
Hi Susan,
I hear your fear! When I started peri, my main symptoms were digestive. I became gluten intolerant, allergic to eggs, onions, dairy…the list goes on and on. Foods I had eaten my entire life were now toxic to me. But, since peri was the culprit, no one even thought to put the ideas together.
Because I was given standard blood tests–hormone levels, vitamin levels, cholesterol etc.–mine came back mostly normal too.
Until I figured out that my symptoms were food related–with very little help from the medical community–I was like you, Horrible dreams, bad gastric symptoms, anxiety to the point of madness, screaming sinuses, dry skin. Sometimes I wet myself because my intestines were struggling so badly they punched my bladder.
Like you, I felt like my body was rejecting everything–because it was.
Like you I sobbed and went round and round in my head because I couldn’t figure out what was going on. And I was completely alone in the search for answers. Once the tests came back OK–no one was interested in helping.
Slowly, I started to eliminate the main culprits, wheat, dairy, etc. And I did start to feel better. Now I feel pretty good.
Please let’s focus on getting you well. So when/if your daughters deal with challenges, you can be the resource you want to be for them.
PM me if you like. I have been there.
Love you!
XXOO
Hi Susan,
I’m so sorry that you are going through this hell. It’s so frustrating to KNOW that something is wrong, and yet all the doctors and all the tests show nothing definitive. I have been down that road. I am 46 and have been dealing with my own version of whatever “it” is for about 4 years. Sometimes I am okay and can function fine, but other times I feel so awful that it is shocking that I am not going to die imminently (lol). Horrible heart palpitations/skipped beats, feeling like my blood pressure has plummeted, extreme light-headedness, overwhelming sense of impending doom, feeling of being outside my body, nausea/heartburn, anxiety, tightness in my throat and chest, etc. etc. I have had all the tests, seen an integrative health doctor, an acupuncturist, cardiologist, and of course my regular doctor so many times. They have all been well-meaning, and tried everything they know to do, but there seems to be no answer/treatment to what is going on. I am clearly in perimenopause - my periods have become super irregular and very heavy. So I attribute all these strange symptoms to fluctuating hormones. But honestly, there seems to be so little information out there about peri that the doctors just kind scratch their heads and can’t confirm that is what is causing all this. It’s strange because none of my friends who are my age seem to be suffering like I am. They get the usual stuff (hot flashes, insomnia, etc.). Unfortunately that makes me feel even crazier and more alone. My poor husband has been supportive and wonderful, but I am sure he is tired of it as well. I try to hide it from my kids as best as I can. I don’t want them to remember their childhood with a sick and crazy mom. It has been rough. However, it is comforting to find others going through similar experiences.