I've always been that anxious little kid since kindergarten. I've gotten so anxious that I had to vomit several times in a day. As I grow bigger and bigger, I start to realize that almost everything makes me feel incredibly anxious. For example, I get anxious when I'm about to go shopping even if it's with my mom, I get anxious whenever I go on a family gathering, I get anxious with phone calls even if they're from my parents, and I get anxious when I'm about to go to school. I even took half an hour just to encourage myself to ask ONE question (that's not even personal/important) to my father. Right now, I'm at the point where everything just makes me sick. I didn't have school starting from Saturday until Wednesday, and that itself made me nervous because my mom has told me everytime I finish a holiday, I'd be nauseous when I'm finally going to school. Yesterday, which is a day after the holiday, I was in the car on the way to school. I just sat down looking at the window, then my brain just decided to think about all the bad things that could possibly happen at school and I felt extremely dizzy and nauseous right away. I was so unwell that I thought I'd vomit already if I move an inch. When I walked to class, my legs were so weak. I couldn't hold it anymore, so after placing my bag in the class, I ran to the toilet to puke. Not much came out, but I still felt dizzy. At first, I thought it was motion sickness, but it has never been like this. I'd just feel a little nauseous, but my legs, no, my whole limbs, would still be fine, and the nausea would fade away within an hour. But this? when my friends started talking to me, I really couldn't focus on the conversation and I feel like I'm getting more and more unconscious each minute. The first period was P.E. and I get so anxious when it comes to that subject because the teacher gives workouts that are too heavy for /me/, and I'd get super nauseous. And the possibility that I might get nauseous makes me anxious already, and me being anxious makes me feel nauseous. So after running 8 laps, I just sat down while everyone else played.
I was okay in the other period and didn't feel nervous at all, but when I'm back home I was nervous for no reason and I had fatigue. It's just so weird.
And today, I felt the same thing as yesterday, just not as bad. A few hours ago, I was worried about something small, and I feel sick again right away. I started concerning if I might have anxiety disorder. I didn't tell my parents because they will just simply tell me not to worry about it. No further explanation, or how to not worry about it. I'm considering getting a check up, but yet again I'm afraid that if the doctor says I'm not suffering an anxiety disorder, my parents would get mad at me saying I overthink too much. I'm afraid the doctor would say I have it as well, because it's totally something to not be proud of. But if I don't do a check up, I wouldn't know what's wrong with me and I really don't want to be so anxious like this for the rest of my life. Should I push myself to ask my parents for a check up? Thank you.