Ive had severe anxiety problems for the last 16 years.
It got worst about a year and a half ago. Since then, i've been on 4 different anti depressants. I am taken benzo everyday.
I lost my job 6 month ago, and more importantly my confidence that i could hold a job for the time being because my panic attack and anxiety is too severe at the moment.
I have a family to provide for. My girlfriend had enough of my anxiety and panic attack, she completly ignores me when i feel bad.
I have been crying everyday for the last 2 weeks. I feel like my brain is melting from all the different medication i've had in the last year.
I went to a support group but i feel more depressed than anything after that.
I spend all day in front of my computer, playing games. If i stop even for 30 mins i think too much and the anxiety begin.
I've been sober for the last 5 years. What is wrong with me. Why can't i live a normal life.
Jonathan,
You are an amazing person! I know that your going through so much right now and that it may seem hopeless but it's not I think I know what may be the culprit. You and I both got sober around the same time. Once I got sober I had forgotten how to communicate and basically deal with life and people without being high or drunk. So a massive wave of anxiety attacks and some more night terrors made me a shut in for almost three years. I know you must be having a similar situation and symptoms because when you've always been high or drunk you've really never faced people or reality. I strongly suggest that you see a psychiatrist but also a therapist that specializes in addiction. It'll help because they will be able to see and get you on the right medication for all the terrible things that you are having to go through in order to become a better sober contributor to society. I know that you can do it and that your strong because you got sober and that's one of the hardest things to do. God bless you and I hope that this helps some. If you ever need to talk to someone about these things, my email is best of wishes
Masha
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Jonathan
You need to talk to your GP again, this time make an appointment a double on then make a list of the problems you are suffering and the dynamics of your household
Sad to say only you have the tools to put your condition in your control. You GP can Help as can a CPN.
You can also try using Mindfulness that may help you control your problems. Yousay you have attended a support group, I do not know what that group entails, all I know I attended a Mental Health Day Centre and they had the facility of CPNs etc who can talk out your problems that is not part of the CBT can arrange. However the number of sessions can be restricted and you need to rely on your GP.
In these centres there are like minded people with many of the same conditions you have and they can also give support. Ask your Surgery if there is a centre nearby you can attend
Remember Anxiety can be treated, however you need to really want to become well again, most problems you will be concerned with are basic niggles and you need to understand they are not life threatening
Move on
BOB