i have been extemely worried about being hiv postive. March 2019 was my last time being tested haveing being tested 2 times in 2018 and i was negative both times. Now in March a little after i got my results which was also negative I went to a friend house to talk because i was stressed from my boyfriend might i add i was drinking so i go there and then i come home. made it home safe and sound but heres where my problems start to begin after reaching home safely but intoxicated i wanted a smoke so i go to the store now i have a gps tracker app on my phone which keeps track of me so being that everything was a blur to me i depended on the app to give me insight from the app I drove to one of my friends house but never went there but also never stopped i them drove to the other side of town to the store got my smoke and then it says i went home. The next morning i woke up the 1st thing on my mind was that i had oral sex I couldnt determine if it was just a dream or if it had really happen so i ask my boyfriend and he said no but again we were at odds so idk if he was saying no because he was still mad me or because we honestly didnt, i was ok until later that day i had a call from a number that i didnt know so i checked my call log and noticed that same number called me last night so now im panicking i tired texting the number to see who it was ans who they were looking for they said who they was but never who they were looking for and from them i have been a nervous wreck i have been afraid to get tested and im starting to notice things but unsure if they are happening or if im looking for them to be happening.. Google has not been my friend i have been a complete wreck since, I even chatted on and online hotline to try and ease my mind but that didnt help i literally think about this everyday all day 24/7. could it all have been a dream could that number have been a wrong number? or could have been my boyfriend and that number maybe i gave my number out being mad at him? i kept this from my boyfriend but recently told him about it because how bad it has been foe me and he said he cant remember that far back to confirm but if the app said i didnt stop anywhere why am i tripping!! could the symptoms i feel just be mentally in my mind? Im terrified and have been ever since can you give me tour opinion.. I just want my life back especially my mind
Thank you for your time.
Sorry but i think i don’t understand the whole story. So you think you had sex with someone and can’t remember?? With a stranger or you bf?
exactly
see how its confusing for you its the same for me…
i just woke up and thats the 1st thing that i had on my mind but the thing is i cant recall doing so i dont remember.
i checked the gps app i wasnt anywhere unbeknowst to me, i went to the store and came home. i guess im just wondering what does a dream mean.. could it have happenend or was it just a dream. I had a dream like this before but it was sex not oral i asked my bf and he said we did, when i asked him this time he said no . Im not sure if he said it because he was mad at me still or because it really didnt happen. I think because i had that 1st dream and something happened im thinking this one is the same but this time idk for sure.
So if you are so scared of being HIV positive you should get tested. But I think if you had oral sex with a stranger you would remember it and why the heck should you do this for no reason in the middle of the night?! Do you know how long you were outside to get the cigarettes? And calm down, oral sex is only a small risk for HIV. I think you worry too much. If you are still scared, go get tested for your peace of mind. HIV tests are extremely (!) accurate. Everything is going to be okay, trust me! It was probably just a dream or your bf denied is cause he was mad at you.
thank you so much Lina!!! to be honest i dont wven like oral sex i barely even preform it on ny own boyfriend. I dont remember how long i was out but i know i never stopped but at the store and then came home.
I think the dream and that random number calling me had me paranoid. Im gonna go and i hope that i am ok because if not im gonna die sooner than later! pray for me.. your message have giving me some hope though maybe its just all in my head and i do worry alot im actually a hypochondriac.
and i was thinking my bf answered that way because he was mad he said its too long ago now for him to remember
Do the test for your peace of mind! Trust me, life gets so much better when you can stop worrying. I know how you feel because last year I was in a similar situation. I was sure that I caught HIV because I had so many symptoms! I could not sleep or eat normally for months… One day I was so done with this sht that I decided to do a test. It came back negative and I was sooo relieved! You can do that as well! Everything is going to be okay girl!
Sorry if I come off as judgmental. I hope you weren’t driving when you were drunk. Especially if you’re so drunk you have no clue if you had sex. If you kill yourself while driving drunk its one thing, but you could very easily take someone else’s life. Go easy on the drinking its not healthy
i havent gone yet but i have it in my mind that i am! i will keep you posted when i get the results back! Im actually looking for a private dr and not a clinic but again i will be back here to inform you!! i really appreciate your feedback!