So I've been pretty much running around my kitchen making dinner not thinking about my anxiety or dizziness then I noticed my fingers start burning and I'm kind of going numb in a way. Like im not real and I can't really taste or feel that I'm drinking my POWERade. My heart rate was up to about 120, I started getting dizzy and feeling like I was just going to lose control and not be able to calm my body or mind down. It's getting close to being dark, the sun is setting now and that's when I get most dizzy. Is all this just anxiety and my inner ear issue? I'm outside and my hearts called down but my mind is still racing a million miles per minute.. this is maddening. Does anyone have any advice? Is this just my anxiety getting the best of me? Ugh I just want one dang normal night. 
:'(
Hey Lockerby, it,s me again the burning u feel I had that in 1989 for an entire year all down my forarms into my fingers they were on fire most days. I use to run them under water to cool them off and put them in front of an airconditioner constantly. This went on with dizzies for an entire year until a Dr. in Idaho said NO U DON'T HAVE M.S. I was convinced for an entire yr. I had M.S. which perpetuated the burning and all it took was this Dr. saying no u don't have it. Within a week all the burning subsided. For some reason I believed this Dr. and settled right down. My heart rate at times would hit 120 per min. and I couldn't catch my breath and my heart would feel like it would stop and then skip beats. So yes all of this is anxiety.
Thank you. Tonight has just been a bad night in general. I started to calm down then a big fight broke out in my family which got everyone heated. I've been trying to calm down. My heart rate it's back in the high 80s but I'm so dizzy and lightheaded. The dizziness is weird. It's like something is just not right. I feel like im not real or that I'm not in control of my body, or my mind. I'm guessing depersonalization but I don't know. I should probably take ativan but I'm not in panic mode.. I'm just.. numb I guess. I don't know what to think or feel at this point...
hEY LOCKERBY I AM SITTING HERE REMEMBERING THAT NUMBING DIZZY OUT OF TOUCH FEELING LIKE I WAS GOING TO JUST ALMOST BLACK OUT. BUT OF COURSE I DIDN'T NEITHER WILL YOU. YOU PROBABLY SHOULD TAKE THE ATAVAN SINCE U ARE EXPIERIENCING SOME DEPERSONILATION AND JUST STOP FIGHTING IT GO INTO UR ROOM AND JUST LAY DOWN AFTER U TAKE THE PILL. DON'T TRY TO STAY AWAKE. THE ATAVAN WILL REALLY HELP. YOUR GOING TO BE FINE.
I NOTICED U PLAY THE GUITAR U MUST BE QUITE CREATIVE AND A VERY SENSITIVE GUY. WHAT KIND OF MUSIC DO U PLAY? I KNOW THAT IS OFF THE SUBJECT BUT I WAS IMPRESSED WHEN I READ UR PROFILE. PLEASE TAKE THE PILL AND TRY TO LAY DOWN MAYBE PLAY UR GUITAR AFTER TAKING THE PILL FOR ABOUT 10 MIN. LONG ENOUGH TO DISTRACT URSELF AND THEN LAY DOWN. U HAVE TO SEPERATE URSELF FROM WHAT IS GOING ON. NO ONE IS GOING TO TAKE CARE OF U BUT U.
I do a lot of reading unfortunately and that's what makes things worse. I read that ativan causes depersonalization sometimes. So it scares me. I'm going to try and just calm myself down without drugs. I've been playing off and on for a long time. I play whatever sounds good, I play more bass though. I'm trying to distract myself now.
GOOD DEAL PLAY UR GUITAR OR WHATEVER IT TAKES TO DISTRACT URSELF. I HAVE NEVER HEARD NOR EXPIERENCED THE ATAVAN OR XANAX DOING THAT AND I HAD A LOT OF DEPERSONILZATION IT IS SCARRY. YOU ARE A GREAT GUY MR. LOCKERBY. U MAY WANT TO TRY THE ATAVAN SOMETIME JUST BEFORE U ARE GETTING READY TO GO TO SLEEP THAT WAY U WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THE DEPERSONALIZATION FEELING. IT WILL HELP U TO SLEEP, SINCE U SAID U HATE THE NIGHT. DON'T FORGET WE SCARE OURSELVES WITH TAKING DRUGS I AM CONVINCED, THAT IS WHY THERE ARE SO MANY SUFFERERS OUT THERE BECAUSE WE ARE ALL TERRIFIED OF DRUGS. BUT U DO WHAT U NEED TO DO FOR U. I HOPE U CAN SLEEP TONIGHT KIDDO.
Thank you! Where are you located at?
I AM IN COEUR D ALENE IDAHO 90 MIN. TO CANADA 30 MIN TO SPOKANE WA. ARE U IN ARIZONA?
Yeah, I'm in Arizona. Right by California and Nevada. Did you ever get really bad anxiety where you were scared of everything and you can't think of anything in your future without thinking you will always feel this way, and being extremely nervous anxious and sick.?
hey lockerby i felt like my whole life was over and out. i had anxiety so bad for an entire year. i would look in the mirror and i didn't look real i would shake i would cry i would burn my arms and hands i had pins and needles in my face and legs i had my spine vibrating every night like a lighting bolt that kept zinging me i had horrible dizzies and feeling like everything was unreal i was afraid to take a shower alone because i thought i might fall i was afraid to take a bath because i may pass ou and drown i was afraid to drive and the list goes on i had every syptom u could imagine i didn't feel like i would ever be normal again and nobody could even begin to understand how i felt and i had been a shaker and a mover a goer doer business owner traveled the world many times over then the big anxiety really hit hard and i didn't think i would survive it. and i felt my future was over. we tend to hang on to doom and gloom in the midst of this horrible anxiety it is like ur in a dark hole and there is no way out. it did not matter how many people tried to tell me this was just anxiety i didn't believe them i was convinced there was something else really wrong with me. u will get out of this black hole i promise u
That pretty much explains exactly how I feel and I'm terrified of taking any meds. I took a .25 ativan the other night and maybe it was just because it wasn't enough but it didn't seem to work or just make my anxiety worse. Right now I feel really out of it and sick. My ear is ringing bad and I'm super tired but scared to go to sleep if feel like I can't because I'm sick to my stomach. It's all just s pain in my ass. My head feels like it had ask this pressure in it. It sucks.
Hey how much did the Dr. tell u to take for a dose of atavan. U need to drink some pepto bismol if u have any, or anything to sooth ur stomach. Ur head won't do anything. I had that pressure all the time and my left ear especially would ring so loud i thought Id go nuts. It still does actually they both ring when im stressed. I make sure there is an ipod or tv or something with noise when my ears ring like that. The best thing u could do if u could is take the atavan turn on some music or tv and let ur body drift off to sleep. It needs some sleep and something to calm u down a bit just so u can stop focusing so much on ur body symptoms and how u feel would be really helpful . That was part of my biggest problem was broken sleep the night scared me and my zinging back would wake me up all because i was afraid to take the xanax. I fought tooth and nail to not take any drugs .ur body needs some restorative sleep to calm down ur nervous system.
Hey Lockerby I am going to go to bed in about 10 min. Are u feeling better? I hope ur o.k. if u need to post something I'll be up about 10 more if not I will pray u have a good night.
It's almost 3 here and I've been back and forth in sleep. I will probably take the ativan because I NEED my sleep, I have an interview and a hearing test tomorrow. I'm so stressed and keep waking up thinking stupid and outrageous thoughts that I know are not true. My doc wrote the script as taking one 0.5 mg pill two-times a day as needed. Every time I have been to the ER and was given ativan they gave me 1 mg, but that goes without saying because that's nurses and doctors favorite go to when they can't calm a patient down. Lol. Well, I'm going to try and get some sleep.. wish me luck. If not I'll take a dang ativan. Goodnight ma'am.
Hi
I feel for you ... been there...not good...sooo hard to take control of too.
Someone told me...your nervous system needs calming. So I read up on it...there is lots of info out there if you take time to read up on it. Give it a go.
If you do 't find anything message me and I'll send you what I found.
Good luck,
Jinny
Hey lockerby, What happened today did u get ur interview done and HEARING TEST DONE? I am anxiously awaiting to hear from u. Sorry u had such a bad night.
I haven't taken it yet, I go take it at one. It's almost 11 here. yeah.. I haven't got any sleep and it's making me fear everything and feel really really sick. I took .25 ativan and it made me feel worse before it made me feel better and I have no idea why. It's like nothing is going good for me at all.
Good luck I will be praying for u. I think the reason the atavan makes u feel worse before better is ur fear of taking it gets u jacked up until the pill kicks in then u start to relax. Please tell the Dr. u suffer from health anxiety don't keep that from him because if he doesn't know that, it will send him on a wild goose chase trying to check this and that and more test when all along it has so much to do with anxiety and the state ur body is in, remember anxiety mimics all kind of neurological disesas that aren't really there. So he needs to know that.U feel sick from all the stress . Ur not really sick, try to tell urself that I know easier said than done. You hang in there u will be FINE. Please let me know the outcome of his opinion kiddo.
Thank you so much. It's honestly very reassuring talking to you. Someone who has been through this and knows how it is. It means a lot to me. I have an appointment with my primary sometime next week.
Good I am glad u will be seeing ur primary care doc next week. I think after today u will feel better. All this anxiety waiting and imagining is unreal what it does to people. U know people that are artsy and musical have very magical thinking which is good and it can scare u too because u are sensitive. Let me know how the appt. goes.