Hello everyone,
I also have been taking sertraline (100mg daily), for a couple of years now. At first i started on a low dosage and then worked my way up until i felt more comfortable in myself. My GP diagnosed me with depression and post traumatic stress in 2004, and although it wasnt easy, i decided to start taking the tablets as i had been living like a hermite, afraid to go out or be near people for the previous four yrs. Plus, i would feel so empty or would be unable to control my emotions for days or weeks at a time. Which mostly left me completly exhausted.
Due to all this i had to stop working, fight for the benefits i was entitled to and try not to feel so guilty for being unable to work (as i had previously been employed for over 20yrs). But this was really differcult. As it really played on my mind and i felt that people could see how ill i was, which made me even more afraid to leave the house, incase i bumped into someone i knew and they could see that i wasnt quite right.
However, what i have learned from this, although i have good days and bad days. These are actually just moments in time. I have found that there is no better help, than the help you can give yourself. I had to hit rockbottom before i accepted that i needed medication, and now that i am on it, i still have the occasional attack and when i do it gets me down but through CBT, i have learned to control and live my life as best as i can. Plus, ive been able to tell all my friends and family, so that if i am ill, i can ask for help - as this was also something i was unable to do, until recently.
However taking the tablets was just the begining, as i was also referred to have Cognitive Therapy and other counseling. Plus, i found a local lady healer and had reiki healing for over a year, which was really hard but helped me to release the trapped emotions inside me. I also found yoga has really helped me. As using the breathing techniques, has helped me to unlock my emotions and keeps my body more agile - especailly as i am unable to walk very far alone and need a car to get from A to B. So any kind of exercise is a bonus.
Finally if you do feel panicky, make a note of it immediatly afterwards. What scale was the panick attack from 1 to 10 (10 being unable to breath - collasped to the ground) and (1, a mild breathy but quick panick)
What was the trigger? Were you outside surrounded by people - was it too crowded? Were you dressing, eating or worried about something etc.
And finally the outcome, how long did the panick attack last. Did you have to go to sleep - or were you ok, did you managed to breath your way through it and clam yourself down.
After making these notes, you can really see for yourself, how the panick attacks and worrys are imapacting on your life and maybne this will help you with your decision.
Stay safe and be kind to yourself