Well the title pretty much explains it....ever since I was young kid I've had a problem with excessively worrying over everything....it was just something that I could never help no matter as hard as I tried not too.....about 10 years ago I talked with a therapist and was diagnosed with depression..since then I've had up and downs of course but here the past 6 7 years I don't feel the depression has been so bad the problem is now I feel I have very severe anxiety...I almost positive I know what has triggered alot of these problems...I'll save that story for another post....I haven't actually spoken with another therapist to be clinically diagnosed with any type of anxiety disorder...but from all the reading and goggling I've done over the past few years I'm pretty sure I know that I have them...I feel I suffer from health anxiety. ..generalized anxiety....and i think all of this is linked to a form of PTSD.....first let me say...I know alot of people especially soldiers and veterans feel they are the only ones who suffer from PTSD...so I'm sorry if I offend any who might read this....anyways sorry for rambling....I just want to talk to people who understand who are kinda dealing with the same thing....it's hard going thru every day feeling this way...in a constant state of torment...just not being able to shake the anxious feelings and the intrusive thoughts....alot of people will talk to you and listen to your problems...but most don't really understand what your going thru and the others start to think you just sound like a broken record...I don't wanna be a burden on anybody by sounding so down on the time....I know this post has been kinda long....but anybody who is willing to read and respond with any type of feedback I greatly appreciate it...and I'm willing to talk to anybody who is looking for the same in just somebody to talk too....thanks
You can talk to me if you want I have spare time on the computer roughly twice a day
I totally understand your daily torment cos I have it all my life. It wears me out and makes me pretty fed up. It's their everyday no exceptions for Christmas or birthdays just everyday. I think I have same as you generalised and after having not the best starts in life feel that's what triggered it. I used to think everybody felt this as I knew no different ! I have come to terms that I probably never will. I have tried all sorts to help me and like you had iOS and downs. I don't feel depressed. I am fed up with anxiety that's all and hey who wouldn't be ! I have seen posts saying I have had anxiety for three months and I am envious as I have had it so long. I agree with all your comments and can relate to everything. It's exhausting isn't it ? My family sympathise but they really have no idea and I get frustrated at times. But we have to make most of the days and keep fighting to get a better quality of life.
I know exactly how you feel. I was adopted when I was 11, and truely had noone I could confide in about my feelings. I have established a close relationship with my brother, but again. He has his own life, taking care of kids. I just feel that there is no true understanding for him, even though he has anxiety issues. He of course uses marijuana to deal with his. When in my opinion is really only excaserbating his anxiety. I try telling him this but it's like talking to a wall. Yes, you are exactly right that soldiers that come back from war, are not the only ones that suffer from PTSD. Those of us that have had traumatic childhoods suffer from it. People that have suffered from any traumatic event that tends to make them relive that traumatic experience, or feel the feelings of the traumatic event(s) suffer from PTSD. I hope you are finding ways to cope. Wish you the best.
I don't like the word fighting per se. I have been fighting my whole life, I am now 42. I rather like to see it as ACCEPTING it. Anxiety is one of those things that it is not a good idea to fight. I have read alot about anxiety have suffered from it all my life, but up until 16 years ago I knew what it was. Learning to accept that I have this disorder, is like some one who has to accept that they have some form of handicap, and make the best with what they can do!
Thanks I really appreciate it
I'm glad somebody understands...it makes it hard because you don't wanna be that person that's down all the time and ruins things for others but you just can't help it
So if I can ask...how did you accept it ??.like I truly understand it's just the way my mind works and that alot of my thoughts are rather irrational...but when I tell myself this and try to accept it i can't seem to...it does nothing but just make it worse
I know. I often feel guilty for that and will seek time on my own so I can't have an effect on others. The effort to socialise at times can be overwhelming
It's so hard. I just accept this is jus me! I try laugh at it. Not saying I have conquered it but it's not as scary now cos I am 51 so guess I used to it. Don't like it but accept it. I don't expect to feel a different way and know if I won lottery or married George clooney I still feel this way. These days I try step back and say well what will be will be I can do no more. I do often look for reassurance that I have done and said correct thing and when three people say I have I relax. Crazy isn't it.
I will admit that I haven't full accepted. It is a process, and will be ongoing. What I have accepted after years of having it, is that I have a mental disorder, like a diabetic has diabetes and has to take insulin. I was stuggling with the fact that I was flawed, and not so called "normal" like others. I am now at the the acceptance and understanding that I have to take medications to deal with my depression and anxiety. I also know that I have to work at being my best friend, and do self talk. Be more compassionate with myself as I would be with others. What I have read about my disorders, we have to learn to talk to ourselves as a really good understanding friend would. Writing in a diary helps. Writing about those things that are troubling to us, and find the positive by challenging the negative thinking we have going on in our heads, and coming up with more reasonalbe, positive thoughts. Meditation may help with this acceptence. Because when you meditate, you are learning to accept the awful, disturbing thoughts that come in our heads. Learn to not exactly FIGHT them which makes us feels worse, but ACCEPT them. Learning to be less JUDGEMENTAL towards ourselves. HOPE this helps!
Yea it makes a lot of sense...I guess I just kinda look at it as why should I accept feeling this way ? You know...like I know fighting it does nothing but make it worse...I guess I just don't wanna accept the fact that I'm going to feel like this forever
Your are spot on. Hope all is going well with you. I wish you peace and happiness in all that you do!
Same to you x
Yea it really does...I know people have suggest I try to see a psychiatrist and possibly get prescribed something that might help...I think a lot of it is like what you said i don't wanna feel flawed...I don't wanna feel like that is something "wrong" with me
constant state of torment, intrusive thoughts,most don't really understand what your going thru.... you just described my life with those sentences... of course i understand you. i was diagnosed with OCD and generelized anxiety years ago. you re not alone!
Well for starters you lying to yourself that you are not going to feel like that forever. That is part of your anxiety thinking. Anxiety real core is UNCERTAINTY. See you are what they call "predicting the future" Do you really possess that ability? See I know exactly how you feel, I have have that when I have anxiety, but what if this time my anxiety doesn't go away and it lasts forever? Then in turns into a vicious anxiety cycle. When I truely have the power to stop the cycle. By finding ways to relax so I can think LOGICALLY, think with out all the racing thoughts, etc. Then I can start finding peace and start challenging those thoughts I had, and disproving them wrong. I promise you anxiety will not last forever, ask others. We do find SOME peace, and those are times to reflect and tell ourselves that was anxiety and I can find ways to cope. Hope this helps. I wish you peace and happiness!
it is so awful to live in that state of mind, sometimes bieng brave is accepting that sometimes we need help. at the beggining it was dificult for me to accept i had to see a psychiatrist and i can not say i am 100 percent better but at least get to talk to people about my anxiety and lit it out. the fisrt step is always the hardest.
Thanks I really appreciate you taking the time to talk to me..you have really helped..I know it will get better...I guess I should just stop being so impatient on when
Yea i don't wish anxiety or depression on anybody....I would actually love to talk to a professional....just don't really have the means of doing that right now