Been trying so hard at work this week and I've crashed and burned. Don't want to do it anymore, well today anyway. Taken various pain killers as pains in my chest, just taken diazepam now as very anxious blank empty have been nearly all week apart from a manic chat and laugh yes laugh yesterday for about 5 minutes. Not sure what I'm saying really. Just f*** it.
Hi Tina, I totally get what your saying, when we are ill life looks like it sucks and for a while it does until we start to feel better and get to grips with the things that bring us down. I'm trying to take things day by day but I'm finding it very difficult, it just restarted on Venlafaxine after taking an anti depressant that didn't do anything for over a year so I'm really hoping I'll see a light at the end of the tunnel soon.
Keep going Tina!
Neil
Best wishes with the venlafaxine hope it works again for you. I have been very numb blank etc this week after a distressing weekend, doctors tomorrow debating owning up to my actions not that it will make any difference. Now got to make myself eat something I suppose. Hope you get to see that light.
I'm getting tired again of this struggle.
Cheers Tina
Hi Tina - i wish there was something any one of could write here that would solve the problem for you. All we have as sufferers of depression is the health system. When you see the doc, be completely open and honest about what you are feeling. Even if they don't have a definitive answer, they will have something to offer. When I finally tackled me life-long depression at age 45, I was completely honest about myself. It helped, though I also learned that getting "well" was going to be a journey of ups and downs and a shadow of disappointment with the system. There just comes a point when you've got to throw all your eggs in one basket and if they break, make omelette.
Doing much the same thing. Putting on the fake smile and so on. It comes to a point when all I have is hate for everyone. I don't want contact with anyone. Not even my children. My thoughts get darker and darker. But it's nearly time for work so fake smile back on and off we go.