I hear ya Gary. I'll be 51yr old next month and I feel that my life is already over. I'm just hanging around for the ones that I love and love me. I have no love for myself anymore. I'm suffering around the clock. My wife has told me that I moan in pain when I do sleep. Major diagnoses, not sure if you know my full story. I live in SC and I cannot use med maj. Not sure if it would help anyway. Can't find a doc that will give me benzos or pain meds. I cannot do PT in this condition. Have an app with my nurse pract. on weds at VA hospital to fill him in on my major surgery on 2-26-18 and go from there. Last time I seen him the Pain management stopped my meds to get a fresh start which is BS. After that I saw 4 neurosurgeons and I found out "myself through research" what was going on in my C-1 vertebrae and skull. Cranioveratebral Instability. The 4th one confirmed it, had surgery, device what implanted, now I cannot move my head at all. I've had CRPS for over 2yrs and the surgery made it rapidly worse. Trigeminal and Occipital Neuralgia as well. I'm in a constant flare up. This is a short version of my health. I'm couch ridden only on my right side now for over 2 yrs and the last 6 months and going I'm on it at least 22 hours a day. I can't sleep in bed with my wife due to the fact that I may roll to my left side. My right side is breaking down and beginning to be affected by CRPS. I have no life and I'm imprisoning my wife to my illnesses. I feel for her. So I know what you mean when you feel that you are making your daughter suffer as well. BUT,,,, we have to keep hanging on. Take care this evening.
Jimmy