Movement I wake I feel worthless, already bringing myself done. I feel like shit. I hate going to school, I have social anxiety. I feel like people judge me in their minds. So whenever I'm home I usually just cut my wrist, it helps my pain. Since, I'm alone.. I haven't been myself lately I've so angry at the world even though I'm just fighting demons in my head.
hey, I hear you, know those feelings all too well. Here for you. I’m in the UK, excuse any delayed replies as its 22.30 now. Pleased you are talking about it on here, do you have any close friends? I was lucky, I had one.
Rob
How old are you? Life is always hard no matter age you are, i felt like that for years, and thought there was no way out, talk to your parent d or guardian or someone you trust, the internet is not the best place i have been on tablets for depression ect since i was 14, you will always have your up and down days but always remember you have one life and only you can make it a good one or a bad one no one else can do that, am 35 now and i still stuggle but i do have a good life, you can to you just need to learn how you control your emotions ok take care
I am so sorry you feel that way. Feeling alone in a world full of people is a very disheartening thing. Do you have any family or a friend to tell how you’re feeling?
I often find very helpful articles and videos on jw.org that help me feel more hopeful about the future, and not so alone. There are people in the world who care, even though they don’t know you. Don’t give up. Things seem dark now, but there is a promise of better times to come.
Dont feel like your alone, i shake sometimes having social issues depression, am always nervousr bur i get in feont of 200 uni students and talk about it, you would be surprised what u could do if you put your mind to it, make a change
So about 7 months ago my mom found out I was depressed and she beat me. I don’t know why. So I tell everyone I’m okay I’m tired of pretending and feeling alone I’m tired of being lonely … so I rather just end it all.
It’s hard to change if you don’t have any confidence or hope of getting better.
the Internet seems the place where I can only get my answers from.
Trust me its not the best unless its a safe site and you let someone know your on it, be strong something good always comes out of something bad, work on how you feel, get help from a doctor or counselling or anything, life is so precious and 20 years from mow you could be very happy
I know its hard, its very hard, but no one but you can change how you feel no one you have to get help,or do something that makes you feel good x
How old are you sweetie
You can talk to a doctor online depending what country your in have you got friends you can talk to if not your mum
Hi jaylashanti - sorry to read you are suffering. Are your parents in the picture? Have you discussed this with them? Do they have any counsellors at your school? That could be a place to start. If not, do you have a doctor? If not, then you must get one. If that is a problem and desperation is closing in (moreso) , then present yourself at the Emergency Dept at your local hospital and explain what is going on. You are self harming which is a way of controlling something - the pain you can inflict on yourself - and it needs attention.
Depression is a cunning disorder, all those negatives that it tells you, thinking we are constantly judged, using the depressive script inside our heads to assume what others are thinking when they are actually wondering what to have for dinner. It’s a defeating cycle. The answer is professional help with those who provide a safe environment where you can open up and examine what is happening.
If meds are prescribed they will take 3-6 weeks to work. There will be an adjustment to them, so expect to stumble in how you feel, it will pass. Sometimes it’s necessary to change meds or tweak the dosage - there is no one-size-fits-all where depression is concerned. Sessions with a counsellor, therapist or psychologist will help you dig down to any underlying issues that may be causing the depression. It’s complex and takes time - but this about your future, self understanding and learning to recognise triggers for your condition, learn coping skills to help negotiate episodes, and understand yourself.
Some things to remember: Ignore those who tell you to “get over it.” They are not equipped to understand the condition; You are not bad, you are ill; You don’t need to suffer alone and alienated; The process of getting help will boost you somewhat, not least of which will be the realisation you are not alone and there is somewhere to turn; Understanding and managing depression will strengthen you; We all have issues in our lives that can overwhelm us. Depression is our issue, our job is to deal with it.
Hi There,
Do you see a psychiatrist and on any anti-depressants etc? I am not sure where you are from but i am from Ontario and able to access CMHA ( canadian mental health association). They can set you up with a counselor as well. Has there been anything happen in your life that started your social anxiety and self harm. what triggered all that for you. I see you said you were in High School. I don’t know if now a days if your guidance counselor can assist you and send you in the direction where she/he could share where you can seek help. I am in my 40’s and as i say in Ontario in our high schools we use to have guidance counselors but that was back in my high school days. I am very concerned as well about self harm. something has happened and i don’t want to speculate anything. I am not sure either how your parents are and how they could not know their daughter is hurting herself as well your social anxiety fear etc??? I do know that some parents just turn a blind eh instead of helping. I’ve been there…i know all about that. as well here in Ontario we have a crisis health number…there are MANY numbers of organizations that are 24 hrs and I have used them many times and their guidance for things I didnt even knew of that could help me. I strongly suggest your family doctor set you up with a psychiatrist to FULLY assess you.
You came to the right place coming to this blog cause its helped me and also find out things I never knew until I have read some of people’s posts and comments.
I am not sure if my info is pertinent to you as i am in Ontario so i know its different everywhere.
I do hope you seek out to someone in your area. you can’t battle this alone. I have battled almost 10 years thus far and i have some days I have made it right to the top of a mountain and have a really good day then i could be stuck at that bottom more than the top. it’s a battle I have fought for a great deal of my life but i do FINALLY have the support from my family that i never had all those years. I struggled alone and in silence for a long time and i don’t wish that on anyone trying to battle it on your own. I hope we can see a post from you saying you have seemed help and start to get you on a path with a counselor as well.
We are all here for you so don’t feel alone that no one will reply to your post. Their are amazing people that are on here and have SO much knowledge. So you came to the right place. I love this blog
you take care,
Jennifer
Hi jaylashanti
We note from a recent post which you have made to our forum that you may be experiencing thoughts around self-harm. If we have misinterpreted your comments then we apologise for contacting you directly. But if you are having such thoughts then please note that you are not alone in this, and there are people out there that can help.
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