In the past few weeks ive found a lot of solace in this forum.
It has helped a lot to be able to share and get others' points of view and experiences. I usually log on when i need a pick me up (very very often lately) but today is different.
So im on day 13 back on flu (dose expected to be raised in a couple of days)
I thought it'd be nice to open a thread were we can share some of our progress (no matter how small)
Here's my two pennies:
Today for the first time in weeks ive woken up in sort of a decent mood! My mornings up to midday have been absolutely horrific, very dazed, detached, unmotivated, quite anxy and low very low.
Today was different, it wasnt amazing but it felt amazing to feel a bit different. I was very shocked as I've come to expect little so not to feel dissapointed and i was sort of just waiting to see when it was going to stop. It didnt last too long (i didnt expect it to) and after a couple of hours i was back to "my normal, not so great me", i started having some pretty intrusive thoughts which i think came from the fact that i couldnt believe why i was in a decent mood and was probably sort of sabotaging myself a little. But i was able to keep things under wraps and no matter how my day ends its not gonna take away from the fact i had a very decent wake up today.
My stomach seemed to have settled a bit also, hopefully that continues.
So yeah to my sort of better morning! Looking forward to more .
Please share your little progresses and achivements, no matter how small they seem ,no matter how many step backs we take.
I have had a brilliant breakthrough the last few months the first thing I noticed was that I was actually smiling and not pretending to smile also I had more energy as before I felt so tired all the time thought it was part of my personality the depression but had a setback last week lots of stress so need to see gp in an hour I'm just hoping he will give me a sick note as I should of been back at work today
feeling anxious but trying to think positive and that's its just a set back eeekk
Sounds like you've been doing really great, I'm aiming for that myself.
Sorry to hear about the set back,hope gp saw you and gave you the sick note.
Everyone has bad times and set backs, it's natural, although for us they're a lot worse,acute than the average, and more scary. Try and stay as positive as possible and Hope your hump on the road passes swiftly. XxxX
I was doing better but this week has been a setback. After a miscarriage 2 years ago I developed intrusive thoughts I guess from PTSD. After 3 weeks on flu I was cured and have been fine up until another miscarriage in sept. I then hit the lowest depression in dec with intrusive thoughts back full force. I restarted flu in March and after 6 weeks found out I was pregnant again which wasn't planned. I was on birth control and wanted to get back to being mentally healthy. The hormones have been up and down and it def hasn't been easy this time on flu. Last week I was finally starting to feel a little better but my 9 week appt ultrasound anxiety has caused me to spiral back down hill. This week scared the thoughts will never go away, worried about something going wrong with this pregnancy and what's to come...worse depression or a fear of developing psychosis after this pregnancy
Sounds like you had been doing fairly well given the circumstances, and you know fluoxetine has worked well in the past for you which means chances are it will carry on working (maybe dose change having something added) sounds like life's events arent helping and your hormones must be all over the place right now.
I understand how you would feel anxious about this pregnancy,its seems natural to but try to be gentle with yourself, you've had a lot going on and the meds might take some time to bring you to some sort of balance.
How far along are you? I was on flu through my first pregnancy, made me feel guilty and scared, turns out it was probably the better call as it worked and my mood and anxiety slowly improved (much better for baby). He is now 8 and fine.
I know it's easier said than done but be gentle with yourself and try to keep in mind this rough patch is temporary and will pass.
Keep taking the steps to get better and allow time for it to happen. Hang on in there mama! XxX
Thank you! Was you on flu thru the first trimester? I'm 10 weeks and I'm only taken 5 mg. because I'm so scared of hurting the baby. I took 10 mg last time because I'm so sensitive to meds. I wanted to go up to 10 when I get out of the first trimester. Do you mind me asking he much your dosage was when you were pregnant and if the baby had any withdrawals?
I took 20 mg for the first 2months, until i found out i was pregnant, then got scared and stopped,which didnt do me any good and doc advised me to get back on them because my state was probably more damaging for baby than the little chance of the meds affecting him. I went back on them on the 3rd trimester, 20 mg again. It helped me, a lot. They did change me to sertraline after birth ( i think it was because its less present in breastmilk) Baby was born naturally, full term,healthy and well. No withdrawal symptoms of any kind. You are on a very low dose and The chances if ssris affecting pregnancy are very low.
I guess its about weighing up whether you can be ok without them, but if you feel you won't be ok...being depressed and suffering from anxiety etc will not do our babies any favours. I know the guilt is not fun, and the not knowing and the waiting but a very unwell mummy is probably worse.