I cannot keep things at bay anymore. For maybe a few hours I feel almost normal but then its back. I just want it to stop haunting me the way it does.
My gp is now concerned because my memory is getting worse. I never remember my meds, if it wasn't for my wife I don't think I'd even be still on them. She's my rock and how she puts up with me I'll never know. I forget days, conversations, information that I should know. Is it all connected to my depression or could it be something else?
I try to be and think positively but it never quite lasts. Why are my occasional ups always followed by huge lows? God I'm waffling. Sorry.
Someone tell me, does it really help to write down everything you are feeling or thinking?
Sorry for the randomness but thanks for your time.
hi deaver for a minute there i thought you were me by that i mean you sound.like me ! depression is a curse as youve found out it affects everyone differently i am surprised at the memory problems if you dont mind how old are you ! i myself have memory problems but.mine as a result of having a brain anuerysum two years ago which left me with bad short term memory i have to get my wife to sort my tablets and we use a calender to remember appointments i was only 47 when it happened ! i dont know if your on medication for your depression but some of the meds can cause problems so if you are still not feeling right go back to your g.p and see if he can help ! good luck david
Hey love the photo. Cheered me up. I went past a garden yesterday on the bus and in a garden was a eucalyptus tree and there sitting in the branches was a toy Koala. Made me smile just as you dear little bear has made me smile today. So you see there is always something, however small, that can make us just a little less depressed.
I have a rock too, my daughter. She has seen me through years and years of depression. I live alone, have done for over 30 years, but she was always there for me. Thank goodness you and I have those people who love us and would do anything for us. Hang on to that. I think everything you describe is connected to your depression. It is a weird illness thst plays all sorts of tricks on us.
Not easy to think positive when we are depressed. We try, but difficult to see any way out. Yes ups and downs all the time. Like you, things go OK and then down we go again.
I have had depression for what seems forever, but when my doctor asked me to try and do without anti depressants after all those years, I was worried. But I gave it a go. Nothing to lose. And do you know what, this little old lady is coping well after over a year without medication. Miracle for me.
I write everything down. I was in apsychiatric hospital for a time, and then had mental team nurse visit me at home. She told me to write down positive things, but I always seem to write down the negative things. Anyway, I see light at the end of the tunnel. Ups and downs, but coping.
I think this site helps, as it makes me feel less alone. We battle on. You see however awful I have felt, I have always told myself I will not let the depression win. I have lost a great deal in my life because of this illness, but here I am still fighting. Hard I know.
Take care and keep in touch with us. We understand exactly how you are feeling.
I am so sorry about the brain anuerysum. What an awful ordeal for you to go through. You are so young too. I am so pleased you have recovered. Dear David you are a very brave man to cope. I am so pleased you have a supportive wife. I have lived alone for over 30 years, and although I have a very supportive daughter, she cannot be there all the time. Because of my illness it has spurred her on to train as a counsellor. It is costing her a lot of money and time, as she has a full time job.
Take care.
Anne