53 and suffered with anxiety / depression for over 15 years.
On escitalipram 20mg, 15 years.
I suffer from other things too. See my other threads (Burning pain, bad back and elbows).
Going through a divorce. Crap job. Crap pay. Got to find somewhere to live. Yes, I will be able to buy a small place but will be hard to pay for living there.
I am so anxious about all this. It makes me Ill. Doctors have been useless as usual. I really cannot see light at the end of the tunnel. It's all coming to head now as divorce nearly ended. I am finding it hard to cope with fact I will be on my own and in dire financial situation too.
I love God. I have a child who I will see as much as I want. But, my life is a mess. I am also unwell (see my other threads).
Not sure how much more I can take.
HI you are seeing everything in a negative light which is very common with depression. Reading your post I can only really see 1 negative and that's your divorce.
You are clearly a believer so you have your faith to sustain you. You have a job even if it you don't like it, and you are able to buy somewhere to live. These are all positives as much as negatives. It would help if you could acknowledgeable them as such.
Once things have settled down a bit maybe seek more help? I don't have any answers I'm afraid but I do wish you all the best. x
Hi antig, no wonder you feel like rubbish, give your self some happiness somehow and space and treat yourself to the odd glass of wine, chocolate or whatever you think will make you feel any better. See friends, go out and make your new home completely your own. I really feel for you as I've only been married 9 years and don't know how bad it feels to lose your partner. Look after you.
Have you been to chat with your doctor
Hello how are you doing today
Hi Paul thanks for asking I appreciate it. I am feeling super anxious at the moment coz I am going away to London for 5 days next Monday. My poor friend had to book the hotel, the transport, and generally take charge as I can't do it. This is the first time I have been away anywhere for over 3 years. I am looking forward to it and will be fine once we are on our way, but I just panic as I find the waiting and the getting organised very stressful.
Also my friend loves walking and I can't do much coz of my bad back. She is aware of it and isn't worried but I don't know if she realises how much it limits me. I don't want to damage her holiday.
How are you then? Are you getting on ok? xx
It's up and down for me been in broad oak mental health hospital in march this year trying to take my life with overdose three times and three nights ago I tried it then
Oh Paul that's not good. I don't really know what to say. I presume you have explored the usual options? I hope that you don't take your life as there is always hope even if it doesn't seem like it at the time. If you end your life then everything ends - hope, love, happiness. Make sure you get the help you need. Take care sweetie xx
Yes. Like talking to a brick wall.