lingual and inferior alveolar nerve damage/paralysis/nerve pain/depression/anxiety/ptsd/HELP PLEASE

Brain and nerves
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About two years ago I had my wisdom teeth removed and am permenantly paralyised from it. Talk about being afraid of the dentist now. I have 24/7 pain, burning, numb. my tongue feels double the size, no taste no eating properly, I choke i spill water out of my mouth. 

I am in constant nerve pain. I do not sleep. It has caused insomnia, depression, anxiety, ptsd and more... I live for my little boy. I grew up singing and wanting a family and it's so hard to function, when not sleeping and not able to take all the medications, because i have a child to care for. I'm starting to notice that im losing sensation on y cheek and things are getting weaker with speech as well. I cant chew, I spill like a slob and choke on my own tongue or medications even when they get lost in my mouth. If things get worse before they get better or dont improve at all, I hate to even say this, but I cry nightly thinking of how can I personally live this way. I have reoccuring night terrors of my cutting my tongue off just to stop feeling anything, 

I am 30 years young and you never expect a regualar visit to change your entire life. I don't feel like me anymore and I want to be the best mom and keep singing and one day have that wholemarriage and family life. Sometimes I just don't know if I will get there. 

I have tried every treatments offered from so many doctors and specialists, which many are all out of network and costly. If anyone knows of any drugs prescrition and homeopathic or successful surgeries, please please let me know. I would be so greatful and am willing to try anything befoe I really lose myself. 

If anyone is going through nervedamage and any or all of this, please let me know if I can be of any help as I have done many different tests, treatments and know many doctors. 

I whole heartedly appreciate your time and kindness and any help you may have. I don't like to burden anyone especially my family, so It looks easy to put makeup on and fake a smile, but inside I feel like I'm stuck and lost in my own body. It's extremely difficult and not many understand, I know so many people go through so many different struggles and survuve, but I want to feel good and feel like me again and not just survive. I want to be the best mom and sing and walk down the aisle one day and it isn't fair to think I may not even see thosedays come, if I hit a breaking point as this has only been worsening for two years, 

Thank you again so kindly, I wish you all the best and stay strong

-Lala

God bless

 

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I am sending you hugs and my best wishes Lala. I am so sad that you are dealing with such difficult health issues. You have every right to be angry, sad, discouraged etc. 

Beat the heck out of your couch cushions, pillows and let some your feelings get out of your heart! You are in mourning, I think all of us that loose "the real us" are. I have pity parties for myself sometimes and it helps me get some of the sadness out. Accepting the "new reality" is a struggle and is ongoing everyday. You have lost a lot and I encourage you to share your innermost feelings with your family and friends, you need the validation. I think you are handling yourself well and admire your courage. There was an article that helped me to understand and realize what I was up against. The jest of it is- you are a WARRIOR everyday all the time that fights for your health,your happiness, and for the strength it takes 24/7 to survive! I am giving you a Medal of Honor lala you so deserve it. I hope you can find peace of mind and heart. 🕊🦋🌷

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Your comment truly means so much. It made my heart feel warmth and strength and teary eyed. Thank you so much for your very kind and encouraging words. 

I send you love and positivity to anything you are going through in life as you too are a warrior. Strong women need to be there for eachother and I am sincerely touched by your response. 

Always,

Lala

God bless

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God Bless Lala!  Don't know if this will help. Everybody said it couldn't be it but it took Me 5 years to realize that the onset of My excruciating abdominal, pelvic burning pain actually began at the onset of gabapentin dosage for neuropathy for chronifii lower back pain!  All My health problems ACTUALLY began with beginning gabapentin! Im trying to lower it until I stop and hope to see a vast improvement!  I hope it's not permanent!