Starting in 2004, I began obsessively licking my lips. That led to obsessively biting the skin off of my lips. Last year, though, I wanted to apply lip stain, and it burned like salt on a wound. I put my foot down and told myself that I'm ending this habit.
I got some lip balm, trained myself to stop biting and picking, and a few months later I could tell that the habit was over. Even in my anxious moment, I wouldn't habitually bite my lips. End of my problem, right? No, I wish. My lips will not heal. They absolutely fall apart when doing the most necessary things, like eating, and after taking a shower. Even talking enough separates the healing skin and causes what looks embarrassing and feels like it needs to go. It's been months of flaky and goopy lips, I feel like the only way my lips could heal is if I were to fall into a coma, so I wouldn't have to move my mouth at all.
Many times when I've made a lot of progress, something like an accidental brush of my towel against my lower lip will rip it apart, not only ending what healing progress I had made, but that's where I'm running into a new problem: red and white bumps, and a red, swollen, bumpy lip, my body's reaction to losing that skin. It's especially bad since I work in customer service.
I don't remember what it is like to bite into a sandwich without my lips falling apart, but I'm dedicated to doing what I can. There must be a way.
I'm a 23-year-old woman in a humid area.