I enjoyed reading what you wrote. Whatever this is, whatever causes it not to reset so our functioning returns to its normal state is one difficult ride no doubt. Its a little disturbing science has not been able to figure it out but then again mris first emerged in 1977 so being able to see into the brain is fairly new. As much as we all want to believe or rely on that science is like a religon so to speak, it isnt. Its isnt constant, it isnt concrete. It changes and theories and diagnosis are only as good as the most recent hypothesis and treated accordingly. shypllis once filled the institutions as insane people with no reason known, until they figured it out and cured it. Same with mercury poisioning. The mad hatter disease. Ulcers were believed to be mental and formed from stress untill they figured out it was in fact a bacteria called h pylori. So who knows really what this will be in end.
Society today is a bit disturbing overall. But then again we are all animals in our nature. Maybe we over estimate our own potential as a whole. The fight or flight is living proof we are just animals as its responses are so primitive and raw and havent seemed to evolved as we all believe humans have over the past x years. Im sure life style played a role as some have faced trauma, hardships, illness or whatever and was dragged into this disorder thru that route. But interestingly it does appear some just actually get it from nowhere, hence genetic disposition to it.
Hope and faith as you noted is what carries you through. And it does. Maybe we are a group of people more aware then the others as they live more carefree. But anxiety disorders are rising in epidemics which is interesting. So either we are all going backwards or theirs some "bug" behind all this. My hope is technology steps in and figures it out. Im a bit tired of theories and guesses or watching some self developement speakers explain everything a person needs to do to reset all this yet never actually provide the how to just what needs to be done. Unless you pay them a ton of money. Which is so rude. Its mind blowing how society can stigmatize or cast us off in this day and age. One in four is the newest statistics but one in ten for full blown panic attacks. Thats a ton of people. It brings the thoery back to us being primitive animals at out core as animals cast off any other that is defective in any way. What i have noticed is this wonderful science created killer bees, created tons of mutated ailments, created pesticides so strong bees are being being messed to a point they cant and dont return their hives properly. We use addidtives that by themselves can eat thru plastic and is poison when it stands alone. So keep this all in mind as to what you put into your body as food. So who know whats behind all this. The one saving grace is meditation if you can figure out how to really do it. It realeases reality and allows you to delve out of your body to find solace. We all forget one thing, the world limits you, it limits your beliefs and abilities because science dictates this. Science tells you what is and what isnt, but it changes up rapidly. It was once believed the brain was so limited and doesnt change, well surprise now they proove it does change. But all those poor people in the past were made to believe otherwise and suffered accordingly. My own theory is science and what they taught at the moment is incomplete at best. But if you believe it ..will cause a ton of harm. Its not done yet. Many discoveries are decades at way. So be so careful not to limit your beliefs it will stop healing. Your beliefs can stand in your own way of healing. Think about this, think deeply we started as a cell and formed into a human being. All of us did this. Science didnt guide it. They can not replicate it on their own not to the level we exist. We all hold the information within our cells to heal. I dont know how to tap into it but it exists within each and every one of us. The invisible black box sort of speak. Our machines can see inside of us but maybe theres another layer our machines can reach just yet. Xrays only show bones, mris show a lot more but maybe theres a whole other level..who knows.the body holds the answers and capability to recover from many things if not all things..Thats how placebos work by the way. And they do work. That is a fact. So what you believe is huge in all this. The Placebo works because you believe in whatever you are taking or doing is the cure the reality is you basically got out of your own way, released all limiting thoughts and the body does its job. No the placebo doesnt work one hundred percent of the time, i dont think so who really knows.
But people who have surrendered to this, removing any emotional attatchments to the disorder have forged thru it. It is an emotional mal function. Based on emotions whether extreme fear, extreme saddness..these are emotional things..Same with many cancers.
So spontaneous healing occurs,not t via a miracle or maybe it is.. but because these people figured out how to get out of their own way and remove any variables they are told are fixed. One tremendous difficult thing to do to over ride everything you have been taught. After all all of our emotions and beliefs are all we have to draw upon.
You fell in love and found that released you..I would say that's strong proof we can heal. Such positive and loving energy made every cell in your body pleased. Thats actually what energy healing is made up of. But many will self limit that belief too which is foolish because every bit of us is in fact cells and energy. Hope and faith are intangible, thankfully so those havent been mutilated by science, by false variables ..those are energy in the purest form.
We would all fair out way better if treated with more compassion and understanding that im sure. I do not feel we brought this on ourselves. If you broke your arm and the world yelled at you it wasnt broken, but clearly it is and you cant move it, it hurts, it doesnt function..it would trigger a ton if anxiety wouldnt it. Thats what the world is doing to all of us on some level. The arm would heal in some manner over time but it wouldnt be the same as it was. Well They are yelling and demanding we are fine when we know damn well we arent.
I rambled on your discussion. I hope you dont mind. If you do im so sorry. I do not feel you should blame yourself. This isnt something you did to yourself, or broughtnupon yourself..it something that happened within your brain. So i dont want you to limit your beliefs in any way.