Hey guys. It has been a long time since I was in the forum,but a lot has happened. Well let me begin. I have been to many doctors telling them about my situation and I feel that I don't get any help. I have yet not spoken to a psychologist. I don't know what to do. I have be scripted anti depressants but I got side effects of it. Every day feels like hell and I don't have anyone near me. I have no friends to count on. My family is broken becuae of the domestic violence sin the past, plus I have a handicap brother to take care of. I don't get any help. And I feel I just want to kill myself. I don't believe I will get a normal life like others. What should I do. I'm scared!
Hi Hanna,
First of all I'd like to say how sorry I am to hear about everything your going through and dealing with it all alone. YOUR A MASSIVE TROOPER to be dealing with all this and to be looking after your brother. This site is great and has helped me through lots, answered tons of questions and is just nice to hear others stories and reassure yourself your not alone.
I can sympathise with you to most of what your going through. I was diagnosed with anxiety over a year ago now and still have my bad days, I'd be lying if I didn't say suicide has crossed my mind, but I completely know it's not the answer, I'm stronger than this and so are you, even when you doubt yourself so much and feel like never leaving the house and boxing yourself in, you must push yourself. You owe it to yourself to just get out and do something with your day, even if it's just a walk.
Being alone I can sympathise with - I'm currently travelling Australia alone, yes I've met tons A of great people, but alone of the time I'm alone going from place to place. I also was put antidepressants, not because I was depressed but to help with my severe anxiety (sertraline) and just like you I had tons of side effects and felt twice as worse, so weeks later I pulled myself off them and changed doctors as I was fed up with just being given pills and moved on. There's just not enough professional help out there for these types of mental illnesses in my opinion.
Tips that help me on my down days - Exercise, getting out the house and just keeping myself busy and music. Put your headphones in, get a playlist of your favourite music going and walk, it helps me a lot.
Never feel your alone, these forums and people will always be there to help. Your doing so well, stay strong and another tip (I haven't personally used as of yet) but yes a psychiatrist I've heard works wonders and really benefits these types of mental illnesses. Another thing that also bugs me - just because we all suffer a mental illness - the term mental illness, others look at you to say "you need to be in a straight jacket" that's not the case at all. I'm completely open about my mental illness and I found it helped to be open and talk about it. Get anything off your chest you need to on here.
We're all here for one another to listen and help.
Be strong!
Thank you Daniel for the advise. I also talk about my mentale illness. But I also feel ashamed about it. I personally don't like people thinking I am crazy because of my depression and anxiety
Hanna, you're awesome!
Don't be ashamed to admit to having a mental illness. 70% of the population will experience a mental illness during their lives. It needs to be brought out into the open. I'll tell you about mine if you like - post-natal depression, and another time I had a severe anxiety disorder and wouldn't go out. In my family there are people on the autistic spectrum and quite a few people with bipolar disorder.
The trouble is this - the rest of the world thinks (wrongly) that you and everyone else who has had a mental illness is different. We're not! We are you and You are we.
Anyone can get mentally sick, honey. Listen to Daniel. He gave you great advice, Hanna.
Please stay on the forum, and keep telling us how you're doing. People here care about you.
Love Chrissie