Days are passing like seconds i no longer feel happy i have forgotten how to live normal happy life i dont find my self motivated any more no matter how hard i try. i have enrolled in college in my dream education Software and Data Base development i all ways loved programming all ways dreamed of writing codes and now even i am learning and studying my dream getting closer to my dream but still i feel like its point less. i dont know why i feel this way i cry in nights trying to figure out why this is happening to me.
why dont i feel any thing i am so sick and tired of this.
i wear my smiling mask every day go to work and college pretend that nothing happened nothing inside me is killing me making me feel like i am not going to live the next second, my blood is rushing in my heart making it beat faster.
i run to washroom and try taking deep breaths. sad sad sad like its raining on my head 24/7. i sit down and put my head down and think am i the wrong guy who deserve to live.
i think and i think
Doctors keep giving medication.
slowly killing inside me making me worried cant find peace no matter how hard i try but hey 
the smiling mask is doing its job and no one around me knows what i am going through.
is there any one who feels the same way
I'm really sorry you are having such tough (though that doesn't even come close to how hard it really is) time. May i ask, what medication have you been trying?
I'm going through the same thing, to just mentiona few things, most nights I end up in a ball on the floor in crying fits. I don't take calls from my family anymore because all they want to here is happy things when I am so miserable and can barely function and talk. And a lot of days I don't feel like it's worth it anymore. Currently trying to get help with my psychiatrist.
I may not be able to help, there are a lot more knowledgeable people here but I can say i understand what you are going through. I wish the best for you, sincerely.
What do you think is causing this?? I have done some programming code etc good luck 2 you its difficult I found it anyways.
All the best
Mackie
I just hope you feel better soon , I wish for better days for you
Thank you very much i no longer feel aone into this situation.
Taking anti Anxiety pills every day 30 mg
but i hope you get ride of your situation soon it sunds worse then mine i hope it ges easier for you by time
i have no idea whats causing it its not the coding or programing part i am sure cause thats stuff i been doing since i was a kid its easy for me i just can find the trigger but Thanks aot for the comment Means alot to me thats why i was ehrre to find people who understand
Yah it's weird how things that come so normal are so hard 2 do now....
Thank yu very mych for your suport it means alot to me
I don't know how long you have been taking your medicine but sounds like it's not working. I would check into a increase or a different medacine. I hope you feel better soon. Sucks to hide how you feel I do it all the time cause I don't want my kids to see me with anxiety!
Also keep at school. I know when I took a break it made my anxiety much worse than it already was.
"Also keep at school. I know when I took a break it made my anxiety much worse than it already was."
I MUST add that I don't want you to have a breakdown over school so if whatever you need to do with school do what's best for you.
I find keeping occupied helps whem dealing with anxiety but I can't imagine dealing with anxiety and school. I work and deal with it but it sorta takes my mind off things..
It's been 3 months the worst part it started on my 19 th birthday 😊
Yea I found it that the more you busy the more u don't get worried about the things I don't even know good tip thanx
I am so sorry! What medacine do you take?
Hi there - Im so sorry to hear that you are feeling this way...!! It's time to have a proper sit down with your doctor and discuss a combination of medication and CBT. There are options out there that can free you from feeling like this - you just need to get the confidence to see your doctor and sort this out properly. It won't always be like this - there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I know this! Because I've just found mine!
And what was said your out? Certain medications??
Haseeb, I must be honest and say that I don't feel the same way, but I AM DEEPLY SADDENED that you are going through this nightmare.
I wish there was something i coud say or do to help you, but there isn't.
Just know that you are in my thoughts. I hope you have seen a doctor.
Kind rregards,
jasper
Thanks you very Much it really gave me abut of confidence
Appreciated
I have sat with my doctor 5 times seems a physiatrists twice all they said it is happening because my past and stuff and increase the medication dose and say keep taking it for another 6 month you will feel batter
I am really glad you found a solution to your anxiety it gave me a hope