Hi there, I am looking for answers for what is going on with me.
I have been suffering for about a year with feelings of unreality and detachment from myself, it started one day out of the blue, nothing triggered it, i just suddenly fell into these feelings that my life is a dream, Since then I have had many more symptoms mental and physical, ringing ears, muffled hearing, no sense of self, aniexty, panic attacks, scared of life, feel weird in my own body, out of body feeling, dont reconize family Let me say before this i neveer had aniexty or depression, only got it from THESE feelings. doctors wont help me, im at a loss.. Does anyone else suffer?? ive had many many tests done aswell, no answers
Hi Catgirl I can relate to exactly how you feel, it's the worst feeling ever, feels like you have no soul and the life has been sucked out of you and it feels like your living in hell. Sorry if that's a bit blunt but that's how I feel about depersonalisation. It's a bit strange though if you never got it from anxiety or depression, mine was from severe anxiety and I've had it 12 years but kept it to myself until late a few months back i told my doctor about it, I'm on sertraline and I think it's helping. Anyways everyone says just get on with your life; ignore it blah blah blah...you ask your doctor to see if you can get to see a psychiatrist, did you have a childhood trauma or any trauma, my pyschartrist said I had it because of my childhood trauma and I didn't get dp till I was 24 something about suppressed memories causing dp.
Thanks for the reponse, i mean i did have minor aniexty about my health but nothing that ever controlled my life, i was pretty much completely normal, i am 22, once i turned 21 its like everything changed. As for my childhood my parents divocred but other than that i had a good life. How are you getting on coping? I find it hard to even work.
Hey! It came out of no where? Have you ever had any traumatic happening to you? Something you've been keeping for yourself for years, surpressing it, forgetting about it? Some things can mentally scar you without you realise it then one day it can burst out. Have you ever been on drugs? Such as lsd, weed ect.? I understand how you're feeling, I've been feeling similar to how you described for six months and it is terrifying! Have you talked with your doctor or a psychologist about this?
Good day xx
Yes, pretty much out of nowhere. I was having a normal day when suddenly i went into the state and couldnt come out. I have never done drugs and do not really have any trauma, other than a bad relationship. I have seen doctors but they have no idea what to do for me, they just give me anitidepressents.
Since you developed depression and anxiety from DP/DR, which makes sense because it's a horrible feeling, then I doubt antidepressants are gonna work because medications are generally not used to treat dissociative disorders. However, if a person with a dissociative disorder also suffers from depression or anxiety, they might benefit from an antidepressant or anti-anxiety drug. How's your social life? Have you talked with anyone such as a family member or a friend about this? DP/DR can't be treated, from my knownledge, but it can be better! I guess... Try your very best to ignore it, distract yourself and I read that exercise and eating healthy helps! I eat pretty bad and I never exercise because I'm a lazy prick so I don't have any experience if that works but I've read that it's worked for others.
Well I am on zoloft actually, i feel it helps with my aniexty a tiny bit, when i first got this feeling I didnt leave my house for like 5 months. SO i think zoloft helps a tiny tiny bit..... Ive also heard that it cant be cured, that makes me really depressed........
I do excersise and eat healthy but none of that helps me. I even stopped drinking coffee but that woudnt help either!
Also, my social life has pretty much died. I just work and go to school and spend time with my boyfriend and family. I feel too weird to be around people
It seems really strange that it just came out of no where, triggered by nothing. But that doesn't mean it shouldn't be taken serious! Have you ever given any thought that this may be because you're depressed? Gotten into a really depressive state of mind, causing you to feel unreal, numb ect., this is just something that crossed my mind while I was reading more about DP/DR to help you. Depression might occur out of no where for no reason. But that might not be the case, I'm just speaking my mind. Is it worse now than how it was in the beginning? How do you experience panic attacks? Where and how does it make you feel? I usually get panic attacks in stores because there's lots of people and bright lightning and it just makes my DP/DR worse and the unreal feeling gets stronger and that causes me to panic. I'm better at handling it now though.
I find it strange too! i keep thinking its some medical problem casuing this for me! But like i said i used to worry about my health, i used to think i had cancer alot, so that could be it? I am not sure!! I was thinking maybe depression, i didnt think i was "depressed" but maybe i was and didnt rellize it? I think it is more mangeable now but still the same... I get the most panic attacks at work or school, it makes me feel like im so deatched and that ill lose control. I also get panic attacks in stores, but i usually can cope
I have health anxiety too caused by OCD, it's not as bad anymore though because I don't really care anymore... But if you think this might be a medical problem then you should get it checked for that! I used to be terrified that I felt like this because of a medical problem too and I still do sometimes but it doesn't freak me out as it used to. It doesn't sound like a medical problem though, lots of your symptoms sounds like anxiety, depression and some dissociative disorder to me. But I'm no doctor so I would really recommend setting up an appointment with your doctor and have some tests taken to make sure it's not a medical problem, then you don't have to worry about that. There's a book called 'Feeling Unreal' about depersonalization, it's really good and it helped me calm down. In beginning when I started feeling this I was freaking out everyday because I didn't understand why I was feeling like this and I thought I was the only one who felt like this. I'm sorry I'm not a big help but I hope you'll eventually figure it out and get well soon, I hope the best for you. Hopefully it's not a medical problem like cancer ect..
Well, Ive had sooo many tests done, i feel like there is nothing left to rule out... Ive had bloodwork, brain scans, thyroid tests, lyme disease test, ear test....
That could be it Catgirl, worrying about your health, depersonalization is caused by a tired mind, your mind has taking a break because of all your worrying! The more you give dp attention the longer it stays, I know it's a freaky condition but you have to live your life normally don't let dp win...your now adding to your already tired mind by worrying about the dp.