Hi Ellie,
Not sure I can add to the advice you have already been given because sound advice, particularly from Mike.
I had a similar experience, early on, as you, became frustrated so searched the Internet.
I wrote to the Minerva Health Centre in Preston where they have ME Specialists based and shared my case with them. They gave me good advice and eventually, 6 months later, I received a letter from them for an appointment.
Now, 12 months on, I have been assessed and am attending a monthly programme.
There is a lot of work involved in the early days but it's been worth every minute; It has brought me to the understanding that no matter what your intentions, you cannot change what is going on in your body, short term. I liken it to being in a swamp.
However, in this swamp you can climb out.....but, here it comes....you do not know when you will get out ! It's hard to believe that, ironically, I have learnt so much about myself through ME.
For me, the overriding thoughts are Be Positive every day even after days of setbacks, be consistent in your approach to everything in life and plan into your life the pleasurable things you like to do...
I GET SO FRUSTRATED LIVING LIFE LIKE THIS ....but now I understand ME better !!!
I am in control of my life again and, yes, it's not what I had hoped for but am I lucky to be alive ???
Why waste your precious energy on hope because it consumes you eventually.
Get in touch with Minerva and, in the mean time make sure your doctor has done all your bloods because Minerva will ask for those before seeing you.
I heard some great news the other day on this site....that American Scientists have found a blood test that can find out what virus' we have had in our bodies throughout our lives !!! Imagine what research is going to come from that ?? Maybe they will find some common virus' within ME sufferers and find anti bodies ??
Who knows ??
I look at life differently now.
Funny, I see the little things and notice things I have been missing for years during my fast paced career and so I have to be grateful to ME for that.
By the way, I haven't given up on life, I'm just trying to find my way of dealing with it whilst it's in my life 😍
I hope you find a way forward too.
All the best to you
Jinny 💞